So weak

 It was August 12th

I reach out August 24th

That is 12 days! Yes we didn't talk since August 6th 

but come on!!! You are like an addiction

Why could I not go longer? 

Reaching out to you, not letting you move on

It was enticing talking to you, pretending like I mattered,

Like I was something to you

and I have to accept that I am not, why do I keep looking for the love of the person that I lost?

What if I was married? What if I had moved on in the years since?

How would I have handled these emotions? Would I have had some sense?

Or would I just have pushed it back, would I have just moved it forward?

I am not sure I just remember me imagining moving on 

but still taking care of you

You held a special place in my heart for such a long time

and in a conversation, boom it's over. When it was only half time.

I was so weak, but it was only for a moment. I need to stop focusing on you.

You only sending me messages because I did it first. 

Okay, Auris breathe. Control yourself. Now, what to reply?

He could just have said nothing. But he is thinking I had something to say, but ugh

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