THIS IS THE WORST
I have felt, Truly one thing is depression and anxiety attacks this new wave is like uggghh I want to escape my skin it hurts to be me everything is a trigger like little noises or things that squirm reminds me of the time i saw those movies, spiders all crawling up on your ear or leaving your pocket as yu werent' looking those spidy senses, squeaky clean does Alex no longer need me? Am I valuable to anyone? This is the most rejected I have ever been at least in my delusion I thought people loved me the reality is more scarse, no one does my kid, God, who died for me. any other kindness is short lived. out of mind, out of sight, that's how it has been I once wanted to give someone all my love like a daughter or a significant other and my future king posted his current queen she's like Queen Vasti I am Esther, the one sent by grace. I don't know how I will have it I don't know why people fall for me for my looks God please help me understand it I cant keep going li