Walks in the Park

Today is Thursday I feel like a person that went to jail and has to go back home Or went to war and now has to re learn how to be a civilian It's not that I forgot It's that I was exposed to another way of living and now I don't know how to be Can I be me? But who am I? I was there in Cali trying to keep the peace and I know you are not aware that your good treatment did not fully exonerate you from the crappy treatment you wanted a wife I'm a friend and even worse,  a sister I will not have sex with you Can you get it? Will you get it? Yes you do but you are still mad and yell at me  and want me to be someone I'm not You keep comparing me to your ex she sucked so I don't know why you do that and then you have nothing to say so you  compare me to your wife that you don't have yet I ate a chocolate weed cookie  you influenced me too and yes I'm an adult but God, am I human and humans are weak have you learned that yet? and I'm a flower and this world

 1.  Who is someone that influenced you? and unlikely person, not obvious. 2. What is something that you are struggling with right now and what are your ideas to help you conquer it? 3. Who do you confide in when you are really struggling with a decision? 4. Who is your favorite comedian and why? 5. Do you believe laughter is the best medicine? If yes or no, explain.  6. family tradition you started new in your family or family tradition you kept and why? 7. favorite place you've traveled to or want to travel to and why? 7. 

 Undercover billionare and we are running  trying to figure it out and it takes time cause every day that passes are we closer? we keep doing bible lessons and we are trying to practice patience impatience leads to doubt and then regret then start question yourself i believe in your vision and everyday you have more and you are really about this thing You are not giving up, you are not giving in There's homework, there's work to be made. I call and you didn't pick up but I am getting hungry and tired.  bagel and a coffee in NY they would have that at every corner ina  little truck, I hope I hope that he shows up with the whole wheat bagel toasted for real He said I can make coffee, well coffee is about a dollar. its about the convience of he comes with the food and its already made. I'm waiting so much I have waited too long. My body is tired, overused, and still I write despite my recluse. We were up last night and I talked on Clubhouse. I couldn't believe that I h

 I'M FUCKING FUMMINNNNGGGG AHHHHHH LOL THEN I LAUGH I'M A DRAGON UNDER THIS COOL DEMEANOR BASICALLY IF I COULD I WOULD NOT EVEN GONNA SAY IT

Trust has been broken the first transgression we will grow from this You are still my brother And I am still my sister but I'm not gonna lie This shit is hard What is love, her initial beginning of the song, the OOOs they express how I feel the worst is he's in my heart I feel like I wont be too mad or nothing he can do that will make me turn around type of thing I'm committed to this thing having this vision come alive God you already know my distrust issues This is a revelation of what could happen How you can get hurt How you can trust and give your all and what? I wanted to say its not enough but I don't run on that anymore He said don't complain Made me think of Alaka Say less, made me think of Trevor Why can't i just be accepted? Did God made me to finally be a voice and then be in an environment that I cant speak Then what is the point, I feel weak Manipulated He was himself, he seemed genuine Can I not trust people and what they show?  I get it it was th

I have a h usband whose faith is independent from mine. Believes and lives for Jesus. Leads his family into what God is leading him to do. I feel comforted and I trust him to make the right decisions for our family. We have a courtship. He respects my boundaries. We wait until marriage, trusting God the whole way. People are inspired by our union. Love and peace overwhelms our union. In hard times we lean on each other. Working together and never attacking one another.  We respect and love each other too much to yell at each other. We wait until we calm down  and we are able to be vulnerable unto each other. Our kids have a great example of what marriage is, a walking scripture. What am I believing God for right now\ this year of 2021 I am a homeowner, I own a house in Pensacola.  I have a garden in the back, I pick fresh herbs to put in my food. I don't have neighbors. I have acres of land surrounding my house.  People have to drive to my house, by a nature trail. When they get to

finish it up and send it to his email. or email to Cassandra then she's send it in.  great pace, great pronunciation. great beginning the quote brought us in.  vision- going full time in business. plan and what it looks like. guidance committee.  1. Quiana Holmes, 2. L Gray. 9am accountability meeting. 3.Mike Landro.  You did not tell us who was in the committee but you also let us know their role in how they keep you on track and how they will guide you.  5am working out, getting golden hour of reading. growing my thinking. you have to have a schedule, its all up to you.  get to the office every day (would have loved to hear the time). Etiquette of being full time in your business. takes discipline.  -family goals, great addition to the speech. -service to the community. treating people the way you would like to be treated.  -become the best person that you could be and 

Why 4L the family? Why not just 4L? how do you join the family? exclusive club, you have to be invited in. what is different about members of the family? they are positive, goal driven, visionaries, legacy builders, world changers, they leave an imprit reuniting our people together. not a race thing. like minded.  what kind of things do they like? nature, positivity, happiness, success,  what brings them to the brand? why buy yours, what does it mean when they see someone else wear it. They feel  like the chosen one. chosen one means to fly above all limitiations. to look at the world from a bird's eye view. to have vision.  vision, for their reality. for life. for L.  What made you create this brand? what inspired it?  started this brand because I didn't want to wear other people's clothes. i wanted to wear my own brand.  there was no community of like minded individuals that wanted something better for themselves. you wanted to give a platform where people could meet comm

 and am I enough I do everything to help you but now I have needs that I cannot supply and i'm fustrated feeling unappreciated I do all these things and God is blessing me with these lesson and these things and you asked for help with one thing, I did it then i did a design, had never done that before. i said go to secretary of state website and you didnt do it. but you didnt say it.  you didnt communicate i didnt know you didnt do it. so i do it for you, the administrative thing I almost cursed you out I thought this was already done. I need to be patient, the business knowledge is lacking. But the lessons have been bible and how to deal with people. Haven't gotten to the business part yet. You don't understand my process. I pray, I ask what to teach and when and I give to you as God tells me.  I miss my baby. and money is what will bring him to me. My heart is hurting. I realized this during the walk. I want my baby and I'm depending on you and trying my best to be su

Ideal- What's best case scenario?  Everybody eat. place where opportunity, growth Vision I see with 4L is worldwide. Every city, every country. Will  be #1 brand.  Makes it so special is because we actually care about our customers and the people that we work with. It's not just one person taking the fame and the money. It's a group thing, a collective. The whole brand, is about bringing people together.  great human beings together. for the family, everybody is like minded. everybody is an equal. that's why the logo is an eagle because we fly above. We fly above. we look at life as a new perspective.  We fly high in the sky. many people are chickens. they are just walking with no vision. Eagle, vision. Its dignity. It's more than the piece of clothes. what it means to be a part of 4L. we fly above, we fly above all limitations. and we are free souls. I see family. they are buying into a community. its gonna be like a second family to them. I see a worldwide thing.

 Toastmasters speech for the contest, 4/3/2021 Hi! I'm Auris Arias and I want to tell you how it feels to be raised by a superhero. My superhero, I mean, the person that raised me goes by the name of Andrea Candelaria.  She was a child of 11, the little one. She was brave, she was wild and she somehow didn't follow anyone's rules and didn't end up in jail.  (PAUSE for effect). She almost killed someone once, so trust me, it was a possibility. My aunt was bold. She was the kind of person that would never back down, from a fight, a challenge, a nuance of disrespect. Even to this day, she is a greeter at Walmart and when people want to diss her they ask her, where are you from? and she says "I don't care" I laughed and explained to her she should say NJ. She told me they know she lives in NJ, they want to know her background so that they could fault her for not knowing perfect English. When I was growing up, there was no threat that could come that she could