Patience
A virtue that I have but not as of late. I'm tired of getting dizzy from being hungry. I'm tired of not getting work. Wait, wait, and more wait. And seeing Angel and his stupid grinning face. And seeing everything crumble around me like sand. And being alone like it's a freaking trend. Wait, Wait Auris for marriage, for career, for food. Trust in me, lean not into your own understanding. No one said it wouldn't be annoying. Really. How much time will it take to see the fruit of my labor? And why do you tell me not to labor but to rest. Like I need to learn to slow down (maybe) and to know that everything is OK with my starving artist self. I wake up everyday and I write and I don't get paid for it. Apply to jobs that don't get back to me. The one that did I have to wait a week to start (figuratively). Wait, wait and more wait. UGH!!!