You made it clear

 You are a person that 

you want me to devote my time and energy to you

listen to you, follow your instructions, watch the videos and read the articles 

be available, pick up your call when you want to talk, 

and you cannot do the same

I listen to your problems, offer support

but when I say I am sad, you break down and go on a rant

You kind of hinted at emotional stuff from the past

It's like wow man, I am wasting my time. being friendly to you

It's all taken for granted like before. Last conversation we spoke and you just wanted to share about 

your background and all of that.

God, I see what all of this is bringing me. Up at night writing poems because I am distraught.

Write about love, write about what you know. I know dealing with these men. No thanks.