My ideal/ Que pasa?/ Some random thoughts

Baby I'm so sorry

I'm so sorry yeah

we just want to party 

want to part party yeah

fake!


No but for real though

I want a house, my own house

I don't want to move in yours 

and have to find a way to fit into what you already got going on

I want to have my own

What? My own money

But honestly it's more like my own agency

just agency, the ability to make decision

I guess I'm scared of trusting fully

ARE WE SENSING A THEME HERE?

Things I have to heal before or during or while

we are courting? I have no idea.


Am I scared to let you lead? But that is the whole point

always wanted to end up with a leader, to lead the family

and be the woman that submits, trust you enough to do so



Are my dreams and promises all far fetched?

I ditched Nasean, he wasn't a believer

both a taker then a giver

he learned

But back to you, future husband

What will we do, what do I want?

what is my intention?

I don't know

to trust, to heal, to feel the safety that I felt last night

The feeling of letting go, knowing you have it

It's an interesting idea. I have never had that in my life

Pero yo soy tan diferente que la otra

I hope you accept me, and find me refreshing

I am not bougie, at all

I am who I am

anyways, what else to say?

I want a house, with a garden in the back be able to grow my food

I want air all througout the house.

I want land around it, land to walk around in

land to have grass at my feet and be able to lay in 

without neighbors looking in on it

like why is she laying in that grass?

It's already happened here, yes there is that ah ha!

The truth is, I have no idea what the ideal is

I trust God, have trusted, in all of this.

But I learned how important it is, to think and how thoughts take place and take over

I love all the people I'm associating with 

Mentors from afar, doing things, full of positivity
















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