Today

I felt like reaching out

First time in a while

and come up with reasons to do so

Like an update

but then I thought

I don't have to

Either he shows up or he doesn't

like Jane said, God is in control

I have to come up with the money to go

For him to do his part, he will show up

I don't know what you think is cool

but who is the him?

Today I slayed some dragons, getting rid of relationships

The ground is clearing, like the river splitting free so that the people could walk through

Why do I keep coming back for more, like you haven't done enough

maybe its more self love and self esteem or what? Am I not focused on my purpose enough?

I wouldn't say those things

It's emotional, sometimes it comes up

and all the times I thought of you, oh how I always wanted to protect you

and to think you didn't ever think the same, why did I hold you up so much in my mind

but you did not do the same. Still, the effect.

I wish I could stay mad, but now I understand. Force to keep your company, no

Choose to keep your company, I am not forced.

But still, to get the answer we must provide. I'm so random I really feel like calling.

It doesn't make it right. It doesn't make it right.