What if I let you go?

what would be the worst?

I go back into my world, go full force

run towards my goal

Is anything stopping me now?

its that my life right now, it is all at my pace.


It's all self directed.

There is no set time, there is no set

So in this guidance

I must have mastery of self

I havent started the classes

Everyday I get a little more ahead in the house and 

honestly, most of the time it is in the errands.

Oh, how I got used to my sick period.

My long periods of rest.

Like right now, I want to lay down and watch a show.

why? I don't know. I need to get dressed, I have my towel still and 

my body got dry

Definiteness of purpose

That is what I am seeking

Alaka got his Mercedes

I know what he really wants is his Ferrari

but dang it, he's on his way

and now he finally lives in Jersey

Life is but a cruel joke

We truly do become all that we think about


You said it all started with going to the dealership and 
 
someone introduced the idea of living in Connecticut

and now that started the process of looing for a home

then led them to buying a home in NJ

I'm happy for him


What do I want? as I am so close to it,

What is my ideal?
It is not my dream

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