I dont worry about you

I know you will always be allright

it's interesting I spoke to you yesterday 

and I told you how that always encourages me,

and you said the same

that that phrase encourages you

because you know if things always work out for me,

they must work for you too.

It was the confidence in which you had in myself

You were so sure of it,

that I believed it too.

I was so mad that you didn't step up and do more

I remember I got so mad you made me meet you in NY

and you gave me the book

how to become rich by Grant Cardone

I was so mad, I thought it would have been something else

But funnily enough, looking back now,

you gave me exactly what I needed.

The hustle, the step up, the interrogation of it all

success is like a horse you have to find and tame

and success is the euphoria when you finally reach the goal

After all that time, all that sweat, all those tears.

Grant Cardone's world expanded when everything was falling around him

he wrote the book in anger, then kept promoting it to the rest of the world.

I got inspired to go down and work for him, learn from him like the process of osmosis.

Two years later, I am still in Georgia but Florida is still the mission.

I don't know how, but I know that it doesn't matter.

So many times I look at them and wonder, is time passing on by, am I missing it all?

Last year I lost my job and sold my car

There was a hurricane and tornadoes and my grandfather died

all this resulted in me losing the job it took me so many months to get

I knew then I had to stop the cycle, figure out how to make money on my own

stop depending on a job and so forth and so forth

The desire to be my own boss started.

I prayed, I wanted to become a merchant. have something to sell.

I hustled the one thing I could, my time.

Went to the sales on Wednesdays and then tried to flip the clothes in markets and such.

But interestingly enough, no one cared. I realized the place I was trying to sell 

was not where my market was.  I devised a plan to market to the high schoolers and 

was thinking how much would it have been for people to come to pop up shops and 

I would promote the event. Instead of trading my time for money, I would plan these events

and make enough money there to pay for my life.

The worst day was the one I walked around in 100 degree weather, door to door.

No one opened, and I was about to pass out. I say this is not efficient.

Online, I said, I must sell online.  But I didn't have the resources.

a computer or stuff like that. I was literally down and out. 

I met Takoya, she said she has an online business she created and she started making more 

than her job so she quit her job and it all worked out. 

She was so excited, she said it in passing but the wheels turned in my head.

I was like I got it! Sell clothes online!

Again, but how? I didn't have the things.

Then I got hired by Takoya, worked for her for a bit.

After that stopped, I learned about the products she is selling and I started

educating myself more on Dr Sebi and such.

There is this book I want to buy now, its $33 and it shows a guy that has been on the journey 

and he shows how he changed, etc.

Note of this: in the last 20 days I have stopped talking to Jonathan, we started talking everyday

and Andre is slowing down a bit and then Angel took over all my time at night usually.

Maybe the ebbs and flows are changing and there is the whole thing with what you focus on grows.

I have been in writing mode, and I am trying to figure it all out.

Okay, so I came down and I made a video and I promised myself that I would make it to Grant Cardone and I would work for him, and I would learn all the things.

But then I saw a video of a guy due to Grant, he learned how to make his own businesses

 and deeply increase his earnings. I thought, isn't that better, making your own money?

Money is the key that unlocks things. All my goals, money gets them here. 

Except Linda and stuff, that I have to figure out don't have that knowledge yet.

I was watching this documentary and all these people were successful and had businesses

I'm like wow. Its out there, its available. Many are able and capable and do it.

It is all about having that affinity.

Lord, I have an affinity for you but do I have it for business?

Am I in the wrong road? Then why the pull towards PPL and PPL taught me

Entrepreneurship is the way. It was its own education. 

But now to manifest, and find ways to market and make sense.

To make money online, to be more mobile, to have more options.

I suspect. Maya built her brand and I loved that she went everywhere.

But what she wanted was a partner, a little bit of stability.  And she has that now.

Out of chaos, came her peace. Oh Lord but how I love what she wears and her style. So cool.

Alaka told me, I don't worry about you. Things always work out.

No matter what it looks like, I know where I am going.

But it is time. Time to hustle. I know where I am going.