Why didnt you love me

what was wrong with me


what was right with me

why did I chose you

why didn't I see


you couldn't be there for me


how was I to know?


who was I to tell?


Instead I've spent years hiding in these silences


of what I can't say and I can't do


and questioning the past like a mistake I have to grow from 

but still, this is my life


oh, how I wish it was different or looked a little more picture perfect


but no, this is my life, this is what it looks like


we didn't last, we didn't stick together


I had to make my own way in the wilderness


and you got with someone else


stuck it out with her


why not me? she sucks

you know it


You've moved on, lived life all without me

without a thought of me


It was so simple for you

It was so hard for me

It still is

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