Text poem oct 17

 conformity, deformity

deform myself to fit your box. squeeze and twist, bend my neck and turn my eyes to the floor

but still, you accept me, every week.

I show up late. can't sleep insomnia. They don't know what i go through. 

I get mad, like life is hard for me and not for you. 

How could you possibly understand?

Jesus magnified the law. What about for people that hate rules? That was what my old church was about. We'll be there for you he said. They did nothing. But like Chris Rock says, push the car  then people show up for help you. 

In blue like Jazz why did they not like Christians? It's because of the deeds of the catholic church?

Alaka showed me this scripture and I'm like I've never head that in church!

Manuel, wrote about you. You were cute but so broken, really broken and I didn't see it until we were deep in the mud with it. But when we walked, me you and Alex and it felt like we were a little family. it was almost like it was all forgiven. You complimented my earrings, my nail color, all the little things I did you noticed... I'm like dang maybe that's why I liked him. And I hated the fact that our vibe was still there. He was still attractive, and our connection was still strong. Even though all the events that had happened.

It was wild. 

I have so much story in me, I could fill a cup. 

have some people told you that God is not with you because you follow your dreams? idea that humility means must be broke. 

leviciouness to have no restraint. 

exasporate- mentally wear someone out. 

What is my purpose in the church? Auris will not always be here. ( I was like yes).

I got most value out of Runway LIVE. He went to Iceland for some information. He did consultations from Paris, the Eiffel tower. he ran out of money. passport trouble led him to stay extra nights. he gave his last to make it back in a week. 

123 is password for Apple computer. 

Send care box to Jonathan, Terrill, Jane, and Zari. 

It's 5pm do work from home agent course. ( oct 19)

Talked to Dom, he's good (Sundays are good to catch up with friends)

IDea; get paid to write. would rather get paid to write in chat rooms than talk on the phone. 

If I want to lose weight, drink water, lots of it. no coffee or sweeteners even agave and stevia (no). cucumber, melons, and leafy greens are your best friends.

Wish list: boots for this winter. black felt hat and long sleeve dresses.

get that white top to do with dress (at that store by Walmart) 

Satin pillow case, 

Call housing, fix fridge light and water leak in bathroom. 

There's no losses, only experience that get you there -Trapper