Text clean out part 4

 Today woke up my hip was weird. I didnt read affirmations yet. Thought of a Jane-Auris phone fast. feel like a burden to her? More like I want to get back to positive and not lean on her through the process.

Auris, why so sad, why so hard to accomplish your goals? When I lived in NY and homeless season I felt defeated sometimes, like nothing else I could do to change my situation. So I escaped through TV and shows. They made me feel a little bit happy. I was binge watch to forget my circumstances. Actually, to relax. Lay in couch with Alex and for that moment not have to rush to work or home. Just be still for a while. 

I did the same thing this year when I didn't have internet, going to Tia's house and watch the computer screen all day. Did it help? No, it passed the time. I was on a emotional binge. I feel that's why I have been eating so much lately. Make a decision Auris. It's life insurance or what? Take the coding classes?

God are there more choices? Neo said write an Ebook. Everything requires some capital. Some money, I'm tired of not having any. How to acquire it? 

Maybe I should do a food fast, just drink water or something. 

The whole Angel thing I'm kind of pushing away. it's extra pressure to come up with money to do that. 

Call Staples, see if they have Microsoft word in a CD or Best Buy. Cheaper than downloading it. 

Forgiveness by Ivanka. -recommended by Alaka's mother


Book Club

The question was how do I cross that jungle? I have strategy in everything that we do. 

I learned a great fear of being wrong, that shifted my mindset of thinking I'm right to asking myself, am I right?


How to Master the Art of selling- by Tom Hankins. He sold a home a day. amazing.


Idea in the tub: one page my story, next page, question and the person writes it down. 


I expect you to be Great! Book title.



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