God dream for Tia

 truck-group of people she didn't know. laughing, at peace.


truck- her earlier years


In a beige buildings. (no passion, it was presented to you in a very controlled way).


Tia- 


Everyone outside has containers with cookies.


cookie, dessert,s brownies (heaven like).


Money box, CONVERSION. teenage boy,, down in the floor. he had money, he was counting out change and counting it and putting it into the box. DONATIONS. 


all the desserts were given away for free (GRACE). TIA- whatever dessert I want? GRACE. 

:::GOD IS SAYING ALL IS FORGIVEN:::  



cheesecake was in shape with a regular cake and its strawberry swirl. for free? my favorite. that's her mother. GRACE- ITS ALL FORGIVEN.


Tia is joined to her mother through the abuse. 


Cheesecake is dense and heavy. (got I gotta get 2 desserts to pick up what she really wanted) - 2 baby daddies. 


I can't carry cheesecake and carry all that she had. (she has to let go). 


Let go of the 2 desserts, carry the cheesecake. she put the cheesecake in the back of the truck. 


the rest of them, she bought inside of the truck with me. (they brought her some joy).


(wherever we were going, she was open). the strawberry cheesecake was gone, when she goes back to the truck. 


She goes looking for it. 


Guy in the back, Tia asks do you know what happened to my cheese steak? 


People still sitting in the pavement, outside the door. Tia is investigating- who took the cheese steak?


The same people that were there in the front (FAMILY). No we ain't seen it (family did not see the abuse).


Teenage boy with the money, said no, that was the only cheese steak. 


T- people said we were ready to go. it felt like we already had a set plan on going somewhere. we gonna be late if we don't leave now. whatever, we gotta go. 


2 loves you weren't able to be fully present. the abuse with the mother bled through those relationships. 


:: THIS IS WHY SHE DOESN'T ASK FOR MUCH.  ::


she opens her eyes, she's in her bed, sleeping. COME UNTO MY REST.  


she hears the banging, kind of sleep consciousness level. 


same clothes, RESTORATION. these pants are not dirty, i'm gonna wear it again tomorrow.


It's a promise, there will be a tomorrow, this did not defeat you. 


::THREAT::


Then Tia goes to her living room, her mom is there. how did she get in? 

Mom- get her dressed, i'm taking her.  then Aunt D says- give your mother the baby. (she's on the couch).

threat- give her to us or we are gonna call the cops and we will let them know you are about to be homeless.

JAMES JUMPED ON ME IN REAL LIFE. then you woke up. 






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