hi sis

 I have a whole new life

new apartment, new school.

you have, silence.

You don't call, don't look, don't seek. 

You called twice because you were surprised I wasn't there.

Its disappointing to see how little you try 

when it actually requires effort. 

When I came back from Miami, you said the phone goes both ways.

and you were very dignified in not calling, saying I said not to call a year ago and I 

guess in your mind it applied for the whole year. 

How did I not see this? 

you were jealous of me the whole time?

am I intimidating? 

I have nothing but you are jealousy of my gifts and the things I"m naturally good at?

It's sad. I hate that we get compared. but now I see there's no one around

and the calculations are in your head. You did me wrong years ago, took what I had.

You never apologized. I brought it up twice and you refuse to talk about the betrayal.

I always forgave you, that's what I do.

I'm genuine and I'm kind. Guess you don't like that I have a relationship with your kids either.

Well, you got your wish. there is distance. I'm not gonna be around anymore.

Your daughter likes music, that's my thing, you know that. But you won't budge. 

There are boundaries, unseen. I would have loved if you had a close relationship with my kid.

But if my love for them and their love for me 

intimidates you in some way, if its wrong in your eyes,

I wish you could be open and say something.

I'm not gonna shrink and I"m not gonna hide.

I am pure soul, for the most part. 

You are negative, especially when it comes to me,

Its always doom and gloom with you. Im sorry you only see shadows

when you imagine the future of my life.

You don't see God coming in like a lion in front of me,

He has a plan. But you are all about that you can see.

So I guess I'll see you when there is something to see.

It's sad it has to be that way, sis.