Grief

Grief comes up like crying

Grief comes like a memory that's pushed down

it can hit you in the middle of your routine


it can hit you when you are happy

it can disturb your day, and it makes no apologies


GRIEF...


Grief, please, I beg you,

can you leave?

I was fine a moment ago,

I don't want to feel these feelings

can I have a moment, grief?


I just don't want to feel:


GRIEF

Was it the death,, the finality of intent

the goodbyes we were forced to make. The ending to the story

we all knew was coming but we didn't have the date....


GRIEF

I relish in you, I walk in anger with you, I hate that you have 

welcomed yourself into my life and now you have made yourself

a home in my heart and you refuse to leave.


GRIEF

I swear you are the cruelest guest

don't even bother cleaning up after yourself

all you do is come uninvited, and you keep leaving a mess....


Grief,

I don't want to know you

I don't want to think of you

at night when I get cold I don't even want to acknowledge

you with a shudder


Grief, 

you steal the present thinking of yesterdays

and you steal the future that I thought I so deserve

you speak of memories that will never happen

and you are so heavy, no one wants to carry you


Grief 

I cant even speak about it, because you are a huge burden

to then you make me into a burden

and i don't want to be burdensome  so its easier to 

DRINK, or smoke or try to fuck you away...


Grief, I am done with you, please, please, I beg you...


Please leave.



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