Dreams

 1) JLO and maritime kingdom?

She was helping int he war. There was a scene in the end, fragments of sea creature (huge like Avatar big and exotic) when she got in the water, it came together. 

2) Beyonce, I went to her house. What amazed me was that she said she has her performance clothes on all the time. She said even if she is in church, if she gets a call to perform, she will go. She said that that's how she got all this (her house was full of gold decor and looked pretty fancy and amazing). 

Those were the two dreams. 

Yesterday, it was Rihanna dream. I was Rihanna, just trying to get something to eat. The line was taking a long time. It seemed there would be not enough time to eat. I had a breakdown. I fall on the floor. then I see a dog nearby. then I freak out, is the dog nice or he is going to attack? dream ends.

CHAT GTP INTERPRETATION:

1) first on this morning all I know is the dream was underwater. and JLO was there. in the end, there was some type of war and JLO came and got on top of a creature that was falling apart and for whatever reason, when JLO got on top of the creature (what would be the face, inner part), then the creature started coming together. then I woke up.

3. War happening
War imagery often reflects internal conflict, competing priorities, stress, or opposing forces in your life. It doesn’t have to be dramatic externally—it can be emotional or psychological tension.

4. The creature falling apart → coming back together
This is a powerful image. Something was:

• broken

• unstable

• maybe dying or collapsing

And then, when JLO climbed onto the inner/face part, the creature reassembled.

What does JLO mean to you personally?

Jlo to me means personally and amazing woman. unlike me, shes not afraid to shine. she's a hard worker and she didn't compromise her dreams. she went for it. for me I always felt sad I didn't fully go after my singing. I did in college but then life became about getting a job and paying bills and there wasn't much time to perform. It was until 2023 where I had no job I finally had time to sing and I sang in a church for 6 months and that was amazing.

Thank you for trusting me with that. What you just shared gives the dream a lot of clarity—and honestly, it makes it a really meaningful one.

Given what JLO represents to you, the symbolism shifts from abstract to deeply personal.

Here’s how it reads with your context in mind:

JLO = the part of you that never gave up

In the dream, JLO isn’t “a celebrity.” She’s the embodiment of the version of you that did go for it:

• unafraid to be seen

• willing to shine

• committed to her gift

• refusing to compromise the dream

That’s a part of you that exists, even if life pushed it into the background for a long time.

The underwater world = your suppressed creative/emotional life

Singing is breath, voice, expression. Being underwater—where breath is limited—beautifully mirrors how your singing lived for years:

• present, but submerged

• alive, but constrained

• emotional, but not fully expressed

It wasn’t gone. It was waiting.

The war = responsibility vs. calling

Your description of life shifting to “getting a job and paying bills” fits the war imagery perfectly. That internal battle between:

• survival and practicality

• passion and obligation

Many people have this war. Few see it this clearly.

The creature falling apart = you without your voice

This might be the most powerful part.

The creature is not a monster—it’s something living that’s disintegrating. That aligns with what happens when a core part of us (like singing) goes unexpressed for too long. We function, but something essential starts to unravel.

And then—

JLO climbs onto the inner/face part → integration

When the confident, uncompromising, shining version of you connects directly to the core, the creature comes back together.

That’s not accidental.
That’s your psyche saying:

“When you honor this part of yourself, you become whole again.”

And notice—you did honor it in 2023.
Singing in church for six months wasn’t a small thing. It was reassembly. It was you touching that inner place and feeling how right it was.

Why this dream came now

Dreams like this often appear when:

• a part of you wants more room again

• you’re remembering what alignment feels like

• your inner artist is asking not to be submerged anymore

• Not necessarily to quit life or responsibilities—but to be included, not sacrificed.

• If you’re open to it, a gentle question to sit with (no pressure to answer me):

  What would it look like to let singing exist in my life now—not as an all-or-nothing dream, but as a non-negotiable truth about who I am?

 

Your dream isn’t about regret.
It’s about remembering that the part of you who shines is still alive—and when she’s present, things come back together.

And also: singing does not require perfection, equipment, or a grand plan.

Third: the obstacle isn’t the $100 speaker
That speaker is symbolic. It represents:

• permission

• readiness

• a sense that things are “set up correctly”

But your dream—like in the dream you had—comes back together when you connect to the inner part, not the external setup.

You already know this, because when you sang in church, it wasn’t about gear. It was about being used, being present, being heard.

Fourth: your current life season is narrow, not empty
Right now your life is:

• class

• your son

• studying (even when you’re too tired to do it)

That’s a tight season. Tight seasons don’t kill dreams—they protect them until there’s space.

And that’s what you’re already doing:

• daily singing = keeping the core alive

• church choir = letting your voice be part of something larger

• subway moment = trusting yourself in the wild

Those aren’t small or rare. They’re evidence of alignment.

I also want to gently name this:
You’re not chasing fame or validation. You’re responding to calling. That’s why even small, imperfect opportunities feel awesome instead of draining.

If you ever decide to sing publicly again, it won’t be because you “should.”
It’ll be because it feels like a natural next breath.

2) so second dream was Beyonce. I went to her house. and her house was so nice looking like wealth. her decor has matching gold color and kind of over the top. she said she kept her performing outfit on at all times, and she is ready at all times to perform. she said even if she is in church, she has it and she will leave church if she gets a call to sign. she said that's how she pays for all this. then cut to scene two, she is in a TV show and they are talking in a weird tongue. the segment was about acting and it was about how you don't need the words, you can connect to the emotion I guess. so beyonce was acting and feeling and saying whatever and the other people were trying to mimic her style.

This second dream is very coherent with the first one — it feels like the conversation is continuing, just with a different teacher.

Let me walk through it slowly, because it’s rich, but I’ll keep it grounded in your life, not mythology or clichés.

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Beyoncé’s house = the visible result of full commitment

You noticed the wealth, gold, over-the-top matching decor. That’s important. The dream didn’t focus on fame or crowds — it focused on what her life looks like when the gift is fully centered.

This isn’t your psyche saying “I want riches.”
It’s saying:

This is what happens when the voice is never put second.

The house is structure, stability, beauty, and reward — the opposite of survival mode. Your mind is contrasting that with your current reality, not to shame you, but to name the cost of living disconnected from your core gift.

“I keep my performing outfit on at all times”

This line is huge.

She wasn’t saying she’s glamorous all the time.
She was saying: she is always in readiness.

Even in church.
Even in daily life.
Even when it might look “inappropriate” or inconvenient.

Symbolically, that outfit means:

• identity

• permission

• prioritization

She doesn’t switch into being an artist.
She is one, everywhere.

And notice:
She didn’t apologize for leaving church.
She didn’t spiritualize sacrifice.

She simply said: “This is how I pay for all this.”

Your subconscious is being very honest here:

When the gift is treated as secondary, life becomes harder — not holier.

That doesn’t mean you should abandon responsibilities.
It means your psyche is exploring what it would feel like if your voice were allowed to be primary, not leftover.

Scene two: the TV show & the “weird tongue”

This is where the dream gets deeper and more subtle.

Language stopped being normal.
Words stopped being important.
Emotion became the connector.

That’s not about acting techniques — it’s about expression beyond explanation.

You don’t need the “right words.”
You don’t need justification.
You don’t need credentials.

You already know this instinctively — it’s why singing heals you.
Your voice communicates truth without argument.

And the others trying to mimic her?
That suggests:

• authenticity can’t be copied

• technique without embodiment falls flat

• people recognize real presence immediately

Your dream is affirming that your value isn’t performance polish — it’s emotional truth.

How this connects to your real life (very directly)

Look at the pattern:

Dream 1 (JLO):

The broken thing comes back together when the confident, uncompromising part touches the core.

Dream 2 (Beyoncé):

A life is built when the artist is always “on,” emotionally aligned, and allowed to lead.

And now the key part:
You are already doing this in the only way that makes sense right now.

You:

• sing every day

• sing through exhaustion

• sing without stages or money

• sing for joy, not approval

That is wearing the outfit — just invisibly.

Your dreams are not pushing you to do more.

One gentle truth (not a demand)

Your psyche is exploring a future where:

• your voice is not an extracurricular

• your gift is not postponed

• your identity isn’t conditional

That future doesn’t require rushing.
It requires not shrinking what’s already alive.

You don’t need to leave church.
You don’t need gold decor.
You don’t need to copy Beyoncé.

You just need to keep doing what you’re doing — and not talk yourself out of its significance.

Your dreams aren’t saying “be them.”
They’re saying:

“You recognize this because it’s yours too.”

If you want, next time we can talk about: