518pm. day over?

Picked up Alex. had a meeting. more things to do. pushed to tomorrow. medicaid errand is the one, first thing in the morning. have to travel after 9am when I log on to the class and I guess dip after that. 


guy trying to talk ,me out of cyber security. I was like that is an unasked for opinion. he seemed to have no goals in our short conversation we had.


then it was time to go. I hardly studied, he asked a question then opened the floodgates, I wasn't looking for that but also didn't know how to stop him.

TIME TO LEARN HOW TO BECOME MY OWN BEST FRIEND.


how do we do that?


okay so at the cafe the studying didnt go so great. at home, it was a self deliverance moment. spirit of sabotague. goodness. the recklessness, the need to move once I arrive and am finally still. I did read like one page while I was there. there were so many people at the cafe.


why couldn't my life be different? its my life. what to expect?



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