OPPORTUNITIES

 OPPORTUNITY

90/10 PARTNER WITH GRANT CARDONE, TEACHING HIS STUFF

BOB PROCTOR, WORK FROM HOME, PHONE CALLS AND ZOOM CALLS.

LISTEN TO PEOPLE AND COACH THEM. FOR THAT STUFF.

MEDITATE- LIKE THE MONK SAYS

ALL I WANT TO DO IS DO WHAT I WANT TO DO

3 MONTHS IN THAILAND, ISLANDS

WRITE MY BOOK, 7 SECRETS TO CONFIDENCE

WRITE MY SECOND EBOOK, YOU ARE VALUABLE

THEN TRANSLATE BOTH TO SPANISH

GET COPYRIGHTED

LOOK AT NEO'S COURSE

1K ON THE EBOOK. I SHOULD STILL HAVE ACCESS

I ALSO HAVE TO START DOING PUBLIC SPEAKING IN JANUARY

ALEX WILL COME WITH ME.

THE CAR IDEA, SPLIT WITH JUAN. HE PAYS FOR IT I GET TO DRIVE HIM AROUND TO HINESVILLE AND BRUNSWICK, ETC.  UNTIL HE HAS A LICENSE. 

WE CAN PARK IT IN A SAFE AREA. I CANT PARK IT UNLESS IT HAS LICENSE AND REGISTRATION AND SHOULD BE IN MY NAME? IDK

I HAVE A PUBLIC SPEAKING COURSE.

DOWN PAYMENT PLUS PAYMENTS. HAVING A CAR SOUNDS LIKE SUPPORTING SOMETHING EVERY MONTH WITH YOUR MONEY.

WHAT DOES NOOK WANT? HE SAID HE LOVES ME AND WANTS TO BE MY FRIEND. I JUST WANT A FREE RIDE. NEED TO GET MY OWN SO THAT I DONT HAVE TO DEPEND ON HIM. IT FELT SO COMFORTABLE TO GET DOWNTOWN AND NOT HAVE TO WALK 3 MILES IN THE COLD. HIS CAR WAS DIRTY THEN WE SWTICHED TO THE CLEAN CAR. ALEX WAS QUIET IN THE BACK. I DON'T LIKE THIS MUSIC. I DON'T LIKE LISTENING TO MUSIC IN THE CAR. I WANT TO LISTEN TO JIM ROHN OR FRENCH LESSONS IN THE CAR. OR SPANISH LESSONS FOR ALEX. BUT ITS BEST TO MOVE TO A SPANISH SPEAKING ENVIRONMENT SO THAT HE IS IMMERSED IN IT. 

EAT FRESH FRUIT, NO SUPERMAKETS, NO WALMART. FRESH FRUIT ALL THE TIME. BEACH, SAND, SKY. LIVE IN AN ISLAND. THAILAND MAY NOT BE THE BEST AS WE DONT SPEAK THE LANGUAGE BUT YEAH THEY HAVE THE BEACH SAND AND SKY THAT I WANT. ALSO CANT BE IN A PARTY PLACE WHERE WE CAN'T SLEEP.

SO MUCH PRESSURE TO BE SOMETHING THAT I AM NOT. WHEN I WAS IN THE BIBLE STUDY CAMP IT WAS CRAZY BECAUSE WE WERE ALL THERE BUT I WAS STILL ALONE, WALKING THE GROUNDS ALONE LIKE I ALWAYS AM. NOW I HAVER A CHILD. AND STILL WALK THE CITY STREETS ALONE. I GOT USED TO THAT LONILENESS. WHEN ALEX COMES AND BE MY ME I DIDNT UNDERSTAND. THE GUY SAID ITS HIS INSTINCT TO PROTECT. I REALIZE I HAVE NEVER BEEN LOVED LIKE THAT BEFORE. NO MAN HAS STEPPED UP TO PROTECT ME AND MAKE SURE I AM ALLRIGHT. I HAVE BEEN DOING THE WORK FOR SELF ALL ALONG AND THEY HAVE ENJOYED IT AND IGNORED MY COMPLAINTS DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO MAKE IT BETTER.

ELENA COLDNT COOK 1 MEAL FOR HER HUSBAND OF 5 YEARS. SHE THOUGHT SHE WAS BEING SUB-SERVIENT. I WAS INDEPENDENTLY OPERATING FOR THE FIRST 5 YEARS OF MY MARRIAGE. THEN SHE LEARNED TO SUPPORT HIM, TO LEAN IN, TO BE HIS WIFE, HIS PARTNER, HIS SUPPORT. TO ALLOW HERSELF TO RELY ON HIM AND TO ALLOW HIM TO RELY ON HER. TO HAVE EACH OTHER'S BACKS.

TIA MARGOT SAID I CAN CALL HER ANYTIME AND SHE HAS MY BACK. ANYTHING I NEED. AND SHE SAID ITS IMPORTANT. ME SAYING NO AND NEEDING SPACE IS DIFFERENT FOR EVERYONE. MY VOICE OFFENDS HER AND MY THOUGHTS AND THE THINGS I WANT. I DO NOT WANT TO BE JUDGED. I HONESTLY JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE. I'M FIGURING THINGS OUT, MOSTLY, ME. AND HOW TO GET THIS MONEY AND GET CLEAR ON MY PURPOSE AND GET CLEAR ON THE ACTION NEEDED TO GET IT.

I WAKE UP I START CLEANING RIGHT AWAY. I GO ON IG LIVES BUT MY HAIR IS NOT DONE I HAVE NO MAKEUP IN MY FACE. I DONT THINK P M IS CUTE BUT SHE FIXES HERSELF, SHE DOES LOOK CUTE.

I HAVENT STARTED GEORGE PITT'S COURSE. HE PROBABLY GOT ALL THE FEEDBACK.

I HAVE TO WRITE MR. STEVE (LAST NAME?) COURSE. I HAVE TO SCHEDULE OUR NEXT MEETING. IT SEEMS TO ME HE IS NOT GIVING IT MUCH TIME. AND GAVE THE RESPONSABILTIY OVER TO ME. BUT THAT IS THE POINT INST IT? OUTSOURCE YOUR WEAKNESS. AND I HAVE BEEN DOING IT BUT NOT PUTTING IT FIRST EITHER. 

INSTEAD I AM CLEANING MY MOLDY WINDOWS AND DOING DISHES AND WATCHING NETFLIX TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE TRAVELING PARIS LIKE I WANT. LET'S NOT GET STUCK IN THE DESIRE, LET'S WORK IT INTO EXISTENCE. I REFUSED TO DO PHONE CALLS OR CALL CENTERS. I DID APPLY I GOT DENIED. TWICE. I WAS LIKE, OKAY I TRIED. 

AURIS GETS PAID FOR HER WORDS.

I DID A TRANSCRIVING VIDEO FOR ALAKA AND THEN CONVERTING INTO A SCRIPT, TOOK 4 HOURS. I CHARGED $40. I THOUGHT IT WOULD TAKE 20 MINUTES. 

I ASKED FOR $200 FOR STEVE TO CREATE HIS COURSE. AND HE SAID OF COURSE, IT WAS AN ASSIGNMENT FEE. SO THAT I DONT HAVE TO GO OUT HERE AND GET A JOB. HOW MUCH VALUE DO I HAVE TO GIVE IN ORDER TO GET 1K? 

I CAN DO AN OUTLINE, TURN HIS WORDS INTO CONGRUENT IDEAS. HE HAS THIS TENDENCY TO GO IN CIRCLES AND USE EXAMPLES. SOME OF THEM WILL NOT TRANSFER, SOME OF THEM WILL. AND THEN I COME IN AND ASK THE QUESTION AGAIN, WE DID NOT GET AN ANSWER. HE TALKS LIKE  ALAKA A BIT.   

ENERGY WISE, HE REMINDS ME OF RANDALL. VERY IN TUNE WITH FEELINGS AND HE SEES WHAT IS THERE. 

5,000 BOOKS GETS ME TO 75K. THAT IS TI, REALLY. PEOPLE KEEP SAYING THE WEBSITE DOES NOT TAKE THEIR PAYMENT.  I NEED PAYMENT PROCESSOR AND THEN A PERSON TO DESIGN THE WEBSITE THE WAY THAT IS NEEDED. 

OKAY,CALL THEM AND ASK QUESTIONS. WHAT IS THE NUMBER?

- GET NUMBER TO PAYMENT PROCESSORS. 

-CALL NAVY FEDERAL AND ASK IF I CAN JOIN HAVING A GREEN CARD, NOT A CITIZEN YET. 

-GET 1,700 TO BECOME A CITIZEN

-SELL TABLE AND GIVE TIO DENNIS THE TABLE. I HOPE TO GET $400 FOR IT. OR MAKE $400 AND GIVE IT TO HIM, TELL HIM ITS FOR THE TABLE. THEN I CAN DO WHAT I WANT WITH IT, SELL IT AND GET A CIRCULAR TABLE LIKE I WANTED.

NOT TOO MUCH SPACE. 

SPACES IN THE HOUSE THAT DO NOT GET USED THAT MUCH: BEDROOM. WE ARE ALWAYS IN OFFICE OR COUCH WATCHING TV. WASNT THAT WHAT I WAS SCARED OF? WATCHING TV ALL THE TIME? YES

BUT OH GOD, IT IS SO RELAXING. I CURRENTLY DO NOT HAVE A TIME SET ASIDE TO WORK OUT. I CURRENTLY DO NOT HAVE A I MUST DO THE COURSE THING. 

LATELY I HAVE BEEN GETTING EVERYTING IN MY HOUSE RIGHT. BUT I HEARD A VOICE SAY, GET OFF EBT. I AM SUPPOSED TO FILE FOR EBT. FILE FOR IT, GET APPROVED AND IN JANUARY START GETTING MONEY SO THAT I CAN GET OFF IT.

$300 A MONTH RECURRING. IS THE GOAL. 

HOW TO MAKE A $100 RECURRING SERVICE? OR COURSE MODEL, CREATE A $100 PRODUCT AND GET AT LEAST 3 SALES A MONTH. OR 10,000 SALES A MONTH.

I HAVENT GONE THROUGH MY COURSE. THEN DO FOLLOW UP CALLS, HAVE YOU TAKEN THE COURSE? THIS IS WHAT IT DID FOR ME. THIS IS WHAT IT DID FOR MY FRIEND, ETC. 

CARDONE UNIVERSITY IS ONLY $69 A MONTH NOW. THE WOMAN WENT FROM X TO 1.2 MILLION IN ONE YEAR. SHE LEARNED THE WAY TO WIN. THERE IS A SYSTEM TO THIS.

TAKE CARE OF MONEY SO THAT IT CAN TAKE CARE OF YOU.

I RECOGNIZE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO DO DIFFERENT THINGS TO GET TO WHERE I NEED TO GO. THE GIRL THAT WANTED TO BEAT ME UP MOVED OUT. TIA IS IN MIAMI FOR HOLIDAYS JUST LIKE THE OTHER YEAR. HANG OUT WITH HER FAMILY OR OTHER PEOPLE'S FAMILIES BECAUSE SHE HAS SO MUCH SPARE TIME. SHE HAS GOTTEN COMFORTABLE WITH BEING UNCOMFORTABLE. 

WE ARE NOT REALLY FRIENDS. SHE WONT VISIT ME WHEN I AM GONE. SHE HANGS AND IS LOYAL TO PEOPLE THAT DO NOT ADD TO HER AND DO OFFENCES THAT THEY SHOULD BE CUT OFF. AND THEN SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT THE THINGS THEY DO. LIKE ARNOLD. 

SHE CARRIED A GUN BECUASE SHE WAS WITH THE FRIEND THAT LIVED WITH HER RENT FREE. GOT CAUGHT UP IN SOMEONE ELSE'S DRAMA NOW YOU ARE WALKING AROUND WITH A GUN BECAUSE YOU FELT THREATENED. SHE CALLED ME AND I LISTENED. I DID NOT CARE. I TOLD HER, I DONT CARE. BUT I DIDNT YELL IT, I LISTENED.

THERE HAS BEEN TIMES WHEN SHE VOCALLY HAS YELLED THE WORDS 'I DONT CARE!!!' TO ME. WHEN I TOLD HER TO TAKE CARE OF HER HAIR, OR HER FEET. SHE GIVES ALL THIS ENERGY TO MAINTAINING THIS DOG, OR HER DAUGHTER'S HAIR AND SKIN AND GIVES NO ATTENTION TO HERSELF OUTSIDE OF TAKING A SHOWER AND BRUSHING HER HAIR ONCE SHE'S OUT (OF COURSE, AT LIKE 3 O' CLOCK). SHE TOLD ME ABOUT HER FAMILY DRAMA BUT HATED MY POSITIVE COMMENTS. 

EVERYTHING I SAID WAS WRONG. SHE FELT LIKE I WAS CHALLENGING WHAT SHE WAS SAYING. SHE WANTED ME TO SAY THINGS ARE HOPELESS AND I UNDERSTAND. I DON'T. I'M POSITIVE I'M GOING TO KEEP BEING ME. 

WHAT THE WOMAN SAID IN THE NETFLIX SPECIAL, I'M GOING TO SIDE WITH MY MAN. IT HAPPENED TO ME IN COLLEGE. IT HAPPENED TO ME WITH YOMEIRY. SHE TOOK MY FRIEND AWAY FROM ME THEN SHE'S NOT EVEN WITH HIM ANYMORE. I WONDER HOW SHE GETS AROUND. SHE WALKED BY ME CAME BACK FROM DOLLAR GENERAL I AM SURE. I GUESS SHE HAS TO WALK PLACES NOW. SHE ONLY CALLED ME WHEN SHE NEEDED ME.

SHE IGNORED ME AND MY SON WHEN SHE WAS LIVING HERE. SHE USED TRENT FOR HIS CAR, TO DRIVE HER TO NJ, AND SHE PAID FOR EVERYTHING SHE SAID. TRENT DID NOT PROTECT. AND TRENT DID NOT KEEP HIS WORD TO HIMSELF. THE SISTER SAID THAT YOMEIRY TALKED SHIT ABOUT ME. MAYBE THAT IS TRUE, BUT A SIMPLE PHONE CALL WOULD HAVE CONFIRMED OR DENIED. IF YOU BELIEVE SO EASILY WHAT A GIRL THAT YOU JUST MET TOLD YOU, THAT'S ON YOU. AINT NOBODY LYING ON MY CHARACTER.

AND I AM THE NICE ONE, ASKING HER QUESTIONS WHEN SHE CAME. LIKE IS SHE HAPPY. DOES HER SON LIEK THE SCHOOL. FEELING RESPONSIBLE IF SHE IS HAPPY OR NOT. I REMEMBER I WAS AT THE PARTY AND I FELT RESPONSIBLE FOR PEOPLE HAVING A GOOD TIME. I FELT LIKE SO MUCH PRESSURE WAS PUT ON ME TOMAKE IT A PARTY. SO I MADE PEOPLE GET ON THE DANCE FLOOR. I DANCED AS WELL. I GAVE MY NUMBER TO THE DJ I THINK? IDK.

LESLY WANTED ME TO COME AROUND. SHE EVEN WANTED US TO MOVE IN AT ONE POINT. SHE GOT OFFENDED WHEN I SAID NO. LIKE WE EVER GOT ALONG. RESENTMENT AND WALLS, LESLY. CONTROL AND MANIPULATION, MOM. CESAR, HE'S NEVER THERE. ALWAYS MISSING. IT FEELS WEIRD BEING IN HIS HOUSE WHEN HE DOESNT EVEN SPEAK TO ME.

AND HE WATCHES DISCOVERY SHOWS AND HATES DOING ANYTHING THAT HE DOESNT LIKE DOING. HE TRAVELS HE DOESNT INVITE ME AND MY SON. ITS NOT HIS RESPONSABILITY. HE'S RESPONSIBLE FOR SUYAPA, SEBASTIAN, AND VALENTINA. 

I AM JUST THE ONE ON THE SIDE HE KEPT CRITIZING AND FOLLOWING WHATEVER AGENDA MOM TOLD HIM. THE THINGS SUYAPA TOLD ME WHERE HARMFUL, ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY IT.

TIO DENNIS SAYS ITS TIME YOU GET AN APARTMENT. I GET APPROVED THE VERY NEXT DAY. GOD CAME JUST IN TIME. THEY GOT TIRED OF ALEX. AND I WAS THERE, DOING THE DISHES, COOKING EVERYDAY. TIA CAME AND CLEANED IN THE WEEKENDS. I FELT LIKE THAT WASNT MY JOB. I DID DISHES AND COOKED. I SAID WHEN I LEFT THAT I WOUDL COME BACK AND COOK, THEY SAID NO. SEPARATION WAS SO SUDDEN. I CAME HERE AND I CRIED. I MISSED THEM EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT WANT TO BE THERE. I MISSED PEOPLE BEING AROUND. NOW 2 YEARS LATER, I DONT WANT ANYONE AROUND. 

I WANT TO DISCOVER ME, HOW TO GET TO MY PURPOSE. HOW TO GET MONEY SO THAT I CAN LIVE THE LIFE I WANT. I AM NOT UNDERSTOOD BUT I DONT SEEK UNDERSTANDING. I SEEK SOLACE. THANK GOD I CAN JUST HANG UP NOW. I DONT WANT ANYONE CHECKING ON ME. OR TO BE ASKED, 'ARE YOU OKAY?'

I GOT OFFENDED WHEN THE GIRL STARTED TALKING SPANISH TO ME. I AM NOT FOOLED YOU ARE NOT A NATIVE SPEAKER. IT FELT WEIRD. LIKE I WAS JUDGED FOR BEING HISPANIC. THAT' SHOW IT FELT. A REMINDER THAT WHAT I LOOK LIKE. I AM NOT FROM HERE. 

GO BACK TO YOUR COUNTRY, THE TITLE OF THE GUY'S BOOK SAYS.

AMAZING, I AM WRITING. ITS 9:01AM. ALEX STAYED UP UNTIL 7AM. I SAID I'M OGING TO BED, HE WAS WIDE AWAKE. I SAY COME TO BED WHEN YOU ARE SLEEPY. I GET UP AT 7AM, HE'S THERE, TV ON, EYES WIDE OPEN. I AM SHOCKED. THE THINGS HE WILL DO IF HE'S ALLOWED. HE USED TO FALL ASLEEP BY THE TV. WITHOUT THE COMFORT OF MOMMY, HE JUST STAYED UP ALL NIGHT. TV HAD THAT POWER. IT WAS AMAZING. 

I HAVENT BEEN WRITINGG. IVE BEEN CLEANING AND DOING LAUNDRY AND FOOD SHOPPING. THEN COME HOME AND SIT ON COUCH AND SAY 'I NEED TO RELAX'. AND TRY TO FIND SOMETHING TO WATCH ON TV. SKYLAR COMES AT TIMES AND SHE GETS TO RELAX TO. USE MY PHONE, ESCAPE FOR HER BEING.

I DONT LIKE THAT SHE TELLS ALEX WHAT TO DO. I NEED TO TELL HER, YOU DONT NEED TO MANAGE HIM. HE'S MY RESPONSABILY. 

LAST YEAR THEY DIDNT LIKE WHEN I WAS IN TIA HOUSE. THIS YEAR, NO ONE CALLS AND THEY DONT CHECK UP ON ME. I WAS UPSET WHEN I LEFT TIA'S HOUSE AND SHE WAS MAD THAT I GOT THIS HOUSING. SHE THOUGHT I SHOULD LIVE IN THE GHETTO PLACE THAT LOOKED LIKE THEY SOLD DRUGS. SHE KEPT CALLING ME ONE DAY, WAHT ARE YOU DOING, WHAT ARE YOU DOING, WHAT ARE YOU DOING. I WAS TAKING MY SON TO THE DOCTOR THEN GETTING MEDICINE. 

WHY WAS SHE CALLING ME SO MUCH THAT DAY? SHE FELT PRESSURE BECAUSE I HAD ASKED FOR MONEY FOR WATER. SHE CALLED ME AND SAID WE CAN'T DO IT AND HUNG UP. IT WAS SO ABRUPT, NO CLASS. THE SAME WAY SHE TOLD ME MY GRANDFATHER DIED. VERY MATTER OF FACT, THEN ASKED ME IF I WANTED TO COME. I HAVE A JOB. MY SON HAS TO GO TO SCHOOL. IF I LEAVE I CANT AFFORD MY NEW HOUSE. FINANCIALLY IT WILL FALL APART. THEN I'LL HAVE MY TAIL BETWEEN MY LEGS AND NO ONE LEFT TO BEG.

LESLY SAYS EVERYONE WAS THERE. I FELT HORRIBLE. HYEAH I KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME. I DIDNT KNOW I WOULD BE TO BROKE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.  I DID AN AMAZING FUNERAL. NO ONE IN THE SUNDAY CHURCH SHOWED ANY SYMPATHY.

THE GIRL ONT HE LIVE SAYED, SO STOP LOOKING OUT. STOP LOOKING OUT FOR PEOPLE THAT WILL NOT RETURN THE FAVOR. STOP LOOKING OUT. FOCUS ON YOU UNIL THE FOCUS IS ON YOU, NEODAVIS SAID.

TERRILL IS DROWNING HIS SORROWS WIHT ALCOHOLS AND MUSIC AND HE FORGOT ABOUT THE PURPOSE AND THE PODCAST. HE WAS SO MOTIVATED BUT NOW ITS SWINGING. HE DOESNT KNOW WHO HE IS AS A MAN. I NEVER ACCEPTED THE WHOLE I NEED TO SMOKE WEED ALL THE TIME THING FROM HIM. I AM GOOD.

I KNOW HE HATES GETTING THE KNOWLEDGE FROM A GIRL. BUT SOME MEN ARE LOST. THEY GET LOST IN THEIR HABITS.

MONEY SEEMS TO BE THE SOLUTION. BUT THEN YOU GET A COURSE AND ONT TAKE THE TIME OUT TO TAKE IT. DOG OUTSIDE. LET ME CHECK THIS OUT.