Walks in the Park

 1. To schedule a call with the life insurance guy, ask questions 2. Call back later today, for an hour 3. My brain said to get to 250k I need to do the life insurance job and another opportunity I am not aware of yet will come my way that will make up for the rest

Would you call yourself a spineless weakling if you permitted others to do your thinking for you? I think society made it where they have for us. Parents push this plan on us, and to go against the grain is problematic. I think being a member of society automatically puts you on this plan, whether you know it or not. To question and to think is there another way is not valued and it extremely discouraged. I was lucky enough to find the weird people early on in life that were going against the grain. and I learned a couple of things and I met the people the created their own world, and their reality and it changed my world. Because it made me question the norm. Holton used to say, his kids are going to grow up thinking, what's mortgage? What is that? When their friend mention it. He said his son was in high school and instead of working a after school job at the mall, he had his own business that he was working at after school. The power of imagination. anyway, the first millionaire...

 was the same as couple of years ago I am overjoyed, you are quick with it close me like I'm a client for your business I don't want to be closed I showed you my son you guys say something about his name is the same as another person. Alaka, you call me at 3pm versus 3am, I appreciate it you are listening. But today is the Sabbath, do I do what I have been waiting 3 days to do? or call it off? before you called, I felt like crying over something I saw on Facebook. My vegetables were going bad, being in the table. I'm already being tempte to throw away the Sabbath and get back to my chores. Originally,  I wanted to go to the park with my son, experience nature. But today is a rainy day so I guess there goes that. I am a mess, sometimes. I am a whole mess. I am complete, the recording says. I am complete and loveable and safe.  I don't get what just happened. I was shocked so it was easy to say yes but I don't need any more programs. Maybe I should start my own progra...

It's the best midnight snack except it was 5am and I wanted to sleep and I was hungry, didn't want to cook anything and there you were tomato, ready to be sliced and eaten and I did and I am satisfied until an hour later, where sleep is still passed me and I want another tomato

 this insomnia though is no joke 6:12am now. Want to get some ZZZs  before it's time to go

Hate being home so go outside Go to Duane Reade, what else is there to hide Don't have a car yet, walk with the stroller back home after church There is no one to come to save you You take some sunshine, but not surrounded by nature Unless we go to the park and we spent a lot of time in parks One park a dog came in, I didn't like that, the lack of control I didn't like taking the trains and being around so many people and my son being there When I had a car I finally felt safe. Did anybody care? No one does You just live your life Then there was the whole community aspect having people around I didn't like when I didn't get invited to events I thought I would but then the things I did go to, there was this sense of immense failure Like everyone is normal, and I am about to fall  I didn't like the insecurity I felt. I went to a party and everyone looked so nice No one knew my struggle. To get dressed, to find something affordable To pay the bills and then be able...

 Greenleaf There are these problems that I see What if I search out the solution? I thought about it a lot once I was there but I said nothing, I thought it wasn't my place then I am reading the customer's reviews on Amazon and I see the same What if I just focus on adding value?   Would it work? Maybe it would. What do other people do? A glass container, they like. I like the idea of a container that looks like glass but is light like the Snapple new containers that they did. What if I focus on this on Monday? Call and find if I can add value. Then what? Present to them? Also, I see that the customers are looking for the marketing like I said, but no, it is not there. I am the person with the ideas and the stuff. Can we make it, can we add it whole?