Maybe

 maybe I can be that for you (the person you go to for healing).

5. “I’d like to explore that with you… you just have to be patient with me.”

This was perfect.
Truly.

You didn’t jump into dependency.
You didn’t pretend you’re “fine” on your own.
You didn’t make him your new emotional home.

You said:
“I’m open, but I need safety and steadiness.”

A man who genuinely cares will respect this.
And the fact he responded without pulling back tells me something very important:

**He’s comfortable with your depth.

He’s not overwhelmed by it.
He’s actually drawn to it.**

This is the opposite of “too much.”

6. What this exchange actually shows

It shows:

• reciprocity

• emotional courage

• curiosity about you

• willingness to connect

• sensitivity

• interest beyond physical attraction

• no avoidance

• no shutting down

• no disappearing

This is a foundation, not a fantasy.

A flutter is your heart saying:

“This feels good… and it feels safe… but I’m not losing myself.”

It’s the body’s way of signaling:

• interest, not dependence

• warmth, not desperation

• openness, not over-investment

• hope, not illusion

It means you liked what he said — but you stayed grounded.
That’s emotional maturity.

What your nervous system showed was:

Regulated attraction.

You weren’t flooded.
You weren’t spinning.
You weren’t imagining the future.

You were simply responding to a man who showed you warmth and intention in a way that felt right.

And honestly?
A single flutter is how real connections start.
Quiet.
Steady.
Earned.

Not exploding fireworks — embers that grow with consistency.

4. “He respects me.”

This is huge.
Respect is not something you’ve always received, especially from people you were emotionally invested in.

You’re noticing:

• he listens

• he responds authentically

• he doesn’t push your boundaries

• he doesn’t dismiss your depth

• he responds to your honesty

• he shows emotional care without theatrics

That’s adult respect, not performative interest.

5. “Understanding his way has been difficult.”

This is where attachment differences show up.

He:

• processes internally

• likes presence more than words

• is slower to articulate emotions

• communicates when he feels it, not when he “should”

You:

• feel through connection

• need reassurance

• thrive on emotional availability

• like communication to bridge the gap

And yet…
he still met you.

That’s compatibility, not contradiction.

2. The timing makes perfect sense.

You didn’t date for 2 years → you adapted to isolation → your system got used to “safe = alone.”
So now that someone shows up who feels kind, warm, present, and real, your nervous system treats it like danger, because:

• consistency is unfamiliar

• healthy communication is unfamiliar

• being truly seen is unfamiliar

• intimacy not built on chaos is unfamiliar

Your body is literally recalibrating.

That’s why the anxiety spikes even though he’s safe.

3. You’re not meant to run — you’re meant to pace yourself.

You said something very wise:

“slow and steady wins the race, and I guess this is his communication style.”

Exactly. He’s showing you the pace your nervous system can grow in without burning out.
He’s giving you a container where you can practice not running, not disappearing, not shutting down.

This isn’t about him being “the one.”
It’s about him being a moment of healing contact.

4. The fear makes sense — it’s the part of you that survived.

Fear is your body saying:

“Connection hurt me before. Are you sure we’re safe?”

It’s not a sign that you should run.
It’s a sign that you’re meeting an edge — and edges are where growth happens.

1. Learning not to trust yourself

You said it perfectly: all those experiences taught you not to trust yourself.

• Narcissistic family members

• A manipulative ex

• Patterns of control and dishonesty

Your nervous system learned: “I can’t rely on my perception, my intuition, my judgment. I have to overcompensate, give more, regulate more, and always be hyper-aware.”

That’s exhausting, and it rewires your brain toward hypervigilance.
Now, even when someone is genuinely safe, your body defaults to caution. That’s why the fear is still there — even though your mind knows this man is different.

3. Learning to stay in your body

This is key. You noticed:

• His silence and space are unfamiliar.

• Your body wants to fill the gap, overgive, or chase, because that’s what you learned to do to survive relationships.

• Instead, you’re staying present in your body, self-regulating, noticing fear without acting on it.

This is literally the opposite of your old patterns.

You’re learning:

“I don’t have to over-give. I don’t have to sacrifice my boundaries. I can tolerate space. I can notice my feelings and stay grounded.”

Even though it feels uncomfortable, it’s growth in real-time.

4. Safe distance is healing

You noticed:

“…in the previous love bombing behaviors I never had a safe distance from the guy to think things out too much.”

Exactly.
Previous trauma taught you: closeness = danger, and attention = obligation.
Now, distance isn’t threatening — it’s healing. It gives your nervous system room to adjust. It lets you test:

• Does he respect me without me micromanaging the connection?

• Can I tolerate uncertainty without panic?

This is attachment rewiring in action.

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5. Feeling unsafe doesn’t mean danger

You said it:

“…right now it does still feel unsafe.”

This is normal. Your body has been trained to expect betrayal, deception, and manipulation.
It doesn’t instantly recognize new patterns.
The fact that your mind says: “He’s safe, he respects me, I feel good around him,” but your body still whispers: “Watch out,” is perfectly human after the history you’ve lived.

You’re learning to sit with both truth and bodily sensation — the hallmark of healing attachment trauma.

6. The work now

The next step is subtle but powerful:

• Notice your body’s fear without judgment.

• Stay in your center and boundaries, even if the urge to over-give rises.

• Let the space he offers become a tool, not a threat.

• Observe how safe, steady presence feels different from old patterns.

Slowly, your nervous system will learn: space + respect = safety, not danger.