When I loved you

 I sang so many songs.


I would record them


I would show you afterwards.


I remember your sister said, you really like him.


she said 'you'


years later I was like damn, so he didn't like me?


I know I didn't imagine the shit. 


its hard when something so real to you can be called fake


he never called it fake. but it wasn't real enough for him to stay.



I shared too much with him, it was my mistake. I am honest to a fault and confess

things when I feel guilty and no one cares. I know that now.


no one cares. 

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