Sometimes

Sometimes you gotta sit

With all the ideas and new things

And people pulling you into different directions

And people that want your time, and even will offer you money because of it

A body that everyday is a new thing to fix

and the physical therapy and the pills

and the spiritual warfare

and all you want is peace

and the things that were so simple

they are not now.

or have every been

and the things that come easy to others

they have been kept away from you

I am a servant of God

and of course I get mad at the direction my life has taken

the dreams scream louder than they have ever been

I want to be me

i want to be seen

i'm tired of being hidden

tired of being broke

too close to a broken heart

i'm been carrying it like people carry dead weight

my body needs  a resolution

i desire touch and a man around me

the truth is obedience comes with unmet needs

and still I pray for strength

and not to fall into any weak things

amen