Walks in the Park

  Your new posture (quiet, strong, enough) What you did with your cousin — “we’re okay” — that’s the new posture. Not cold. Not dramatic. Not defensive. Just: factual brief self-contained You don’t owe anyone your inner world while it’s still tender. This is a grief phase, not a verdict on your worth When you see things clearly like this, there’s often a period of: sadness anger emptiness “what now?” That doesn’t mean you’ve become cynical. It means you’re withdrawing energy from places that weren’t returning it . That always hurts at first. A very important shift is happening You’re moving from: “If I’m kind enough, available enough, understanding enough…” to: “I will notice who actually shows up.” That’s not closing your heart. That’s protecting it . One gentle anchor (for tonight and beyond) You may not be anyone’s priority right now — but you are becoming your own . And that’s not a consolation prize. That’s a foundation. From tha...

 You don’t need to “fix” your life today. You’re building a sense of home inside yourself . And honestly? That’s the kind of love that lasts. Enjoy your day-off date. You’ve earned it. 

 1) JLO and maritime kingdom? She was helping int he war. There was a scene in the end, fragments of sea creature (huge like Avatar big and exotic) when she got in the water, it came together.  2) Beyonce, I went to her house. What amazed me was that she said she has her performance clothes on all the time. She said even if she is in church, if she gets a call to perform, she will go. She said that that's how she got all this (her house was full of gold decor and looked pretty fancy and amazing).  Those were the two dreams.  Yesterday, it was Rihanna dream. I was Rihanna, just trying to get something to eat. The line was taking a long time. It seemed there would be not enough time to eat. I had a breakdown. I fall on the floor. then I see a dog nearby. then I freak out, is the dog nice or he is going to attack? dream ends. CHAT GTP INTERPRETATION: 1) first on this morning all I know is the dream was underwater. and JLO was there. in the end, there was some ...

 day 2 no m at night. I prayed it off. thoughts came, of me and guy. Prayed it off.  capture every thought and submit it to Christ. I saw the deliverance ministry lady. What she said was spot on. I was amazed at her realizations.  The things she said were bold, reminds me of me. How bold I was in the New Brunswick season. I could have been a little prophet. I became a mother, that derailed my life. Is this the path? David had Bathseba. I had Angel. Not that it makes sense.  How long do you run from your traumas? and emptiness? and things that make you feel less than great? Funnily enough, that is the season I heard the promise. and the moment I heard it, I felt unworthy. Then came the journey. Georgia was were God put that seed, the seed of trust. It changed everything. Florida, I was like a rag rang up and swong around and people had their way with me. I thought I was open for fun and some male attention, turns out I couldn't handle it and I was weak and I looked to...

 I feel like I need to go to the deli. I need to see real people yoooo. Anyways, I had a great day. I saw a celebrity. the guy that is dating Dru.  It was his face, with a beard. He is way taller than I thought. it was a moment like I could have missed it. This is the 5th celebrity. I couldn't believe it. It made me feel like life is full of possibility. I seen him on TV, and here he is, in my Trader's Joe. I also was grateful. grateful for the sunlight today, as it shined throughout the window screen.  Grateful I thought of Trader Joe's in Miami, but God made it come true that I live by a Trader Joe's now. I am not a rich woman yet, someone that can make decisions about where she is at.  The loss of autonomy that lack of riches bring a sense of childness. I am raising a child.  God provides everyday. today my friend sent $20. I was able to eat, get outside. the sunlight hours are done. I hope tonight I have a better night than last night. But today, that moment...

Ascent Church NOT YOUR OWN Honor your bodies as it has been bought with a price. Everyone is a mess! Corithians encorages me. if churhc was perfect, i would have quit this job. Guilt, blame, fear... we have tried it. changing by using these methods, it does not work.  What does Paul hit the Corinthians with to change? we are more sinful and flawed than we believe. we are more rooted in Him than we dare hope.  1 Corinthians 6:18 Flee from sexual immorality. all other sins are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. FLEE-  get out! 1 Corithians 6:19-20 do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own, you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.  To change, never forget who you are. Paul shows them their identity. God is with you now. Not when you do good, when you behave. You are loved now. Am I enough? am I loved? Religion asks y...