Walks in the Park

  4. What you don’t have time for anymore This part is important — and empowering. You don’t have time for: people who pull away and destabilize you waiting to be chosen silencing Bri living only in endurance mode And that clarity will actually save time , not cost it. 5. What you do have time for You have time for: real, embodied joy (the lip gloss, the hair, the singing — these matter) friendships that exist in physical space, slowly built a life where you are visible, not hidden relief — not all at once, but piece by piece Healing doesn’t mean you suddenly get everything . It means you stop living like you get nothing .

 May you find a love that finds you that treasures you, the kind of love that doesn't leave the kind of love that stays thje kind of love that multiplies the kind of love that challenges that pushes you to be kinder stronger, more resilient the kind of love that grows you, like a seed planted May you let that kind of love find you, and may you trust the God that will bring it to you

Why this matters for you specifically You don’t struggle with conversation — you struggle with unfinished emotional signals . Many people leave conversations messily and move on. You notice the mess and try to clean it by blaming yourself. This practice lets you clean it without self-erasure . -/-/--/-/-/-/-/-/-/--//-/-/-/-/--/-/-/-/-/--/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/--/-/-/-/-/--/-/-/-/-/--/-/-/-/-/-/-/--/-/-/ 3. Build fewer , deeper containers — not many loose ones You don’t need many friends. You need one or two people who can sit with your depth without you shrinking. Those relationships often form slowly and later in life, especially for people who are reflective, emotionally intelligent, and honest like you. The fact that shallow connections keep falling away doesn’t mean you’re failing — it means you’ve outgrown them . One thing I want to say very clearly You are not meant to be universally likeable. You are meant to be accurately known . People who require you to be smaller to st...

 I've been there when all those people you were waiting for, I was there. The calls that never came, I was there.  I am not physical, I know My ways are slow, I know when they betray you, I am there When you are lonely, I am there God there is so much unresolved things the mental hospital the homelessness saying I will go to Florida and it took 4 years I was afraid to relax, afraid to let my guard down I held onto Tia, she was all I had socially Yomeiry too, when she moved I as so happy that's a friend but she rejected me. the jealousy took a hold of her as it does Sky was a scammer, she called me a sister but then tried to fight me it was crazy stories, stories that no one wants to hear.  These things are not to be found in the bible The times I trust you God and the hell I had to walk through the fire, that scripture you are not done until God can be reflected in me. its a miracle I haven't turned bitter I don't know how I have turned I have tried so hard to keep m...

 These are my early morning thoughts the things that are left over in my soul I loved, Lord, I loved. I was not loved to the same amount back I honored friendships that didn't honor me, I didn't see it then People just want someone else, another body to be at the event that's how it felt for Suya I thoguth she was a friend,a  sister, she really did act like she cared. But she just wanted to flex. when I'm going through something these people don't care, they don't look, they don't call. For that year I was homeless, they did absolutely nothing. 

 I saw all my life and my relationshps the one with my brother, I said I gotta fix it when to Philly, where he lived in the time I had a conversation he said he wasn't interested he said, so what, now we get to have a relationship becaus you want one? he said he tried before and I rejected him couldnt think of one example, for me. he said to my sis that he would only get calls from me if it was about money that was one phone call, one time never again its hard to have a relationship when you never had one it broke my heart his coldness and how he wasn't interested the kids were small then. now they are older and  he spazz on me with his comments and came after everything that I love, my character and my son and my life. hateful words that spew out of an enemy this is my blood brother your heart is far from me. alaka used to be my brother, that betrayal was harder people give up on you, don't want to listen to you his only interest in friendships was free labor even his sist...