Walks in the Park

 where I know where I want or know what is the 'right' thing for you to say its like the world is upside down and I'm here and you are here and you live close and you, we have a deep connection and I wasn't expecting it and now i'm going just too much anxiety and chat said you communicate more through precense so I am here waiting like the girl in the castle with the long hair and the dagron I yelled today, my son said too much. i'm triggered I am not well I took a bath, I did the breathing exercises I have cried. I prayed. I haven't read the Bible, okay maybe I will try that.  I don't know why I feel so sad. I don't know why my mind associates you with comfort. I wish I wasn't broken. I wish it was better. I wish it came easier to receive good things and the ache to push it away wasn't here. I have no idea what to do. I have a kid. I have never dated with a  kid, except for James and I told myself I would never do that again. I don't kno...

 “I’d love to spend time with you and be part of your life, but I’m not comfortable with doing cleaning or chores. Can we find other ways to connect?”

  🌱 1. Your family made “stability” a weapon, not a value In your family system, “stability” wasn’t treated as a neutral life circumstance. It was used as: a measure of worth a way to rank you a way to critique or diminish you a way to express disappointment Because of that, any mention of moving, pacing, or where you are in life taps into a very old emotional script: “You’re behind. You’re messing up. You’re not doing life right.” Even if your friends aren’t saying that, your nervous system has learned to anticipate that message. So when someone brushes against that topic, your internal alarms go off. This isn’t irrational — it’s conditioning. 2. You actually have a healthy view of your path You said something very wise: “It’s taking me longer… but that has been my life path so far, and it doesn’t measure my worth.” That is not instability. That is self-awareness and self-responsibility . You are not drifting — you’re unfolding at your pace. But here’s ...

 maybe I can be that for you (the person you go to for healing). 5. “I’d like to explore that with you… you just have to be patient with me.” This was perfect . Truly. You didn’t jump into dependency. You didn’t pretend you’re “fine” on your own. You didn’t make him your new emotional home. You said: “I’m open, but I need safety and steadiness.” A man who genuinely cares will respect this. And the fact he responded without pulling back tells me something very important: **He’s comfortable with your depth. He’s not overwhelmed by it. He’s actually drawn to it.** This is the opposite of “too much.” 6. What this exchange actually shows It shows: reciprocity emotional courage curiosity about you willingness to connect sensitivity interest beyond physical attraction no avoidance no shutting down no disappearing This is a foundation, not a fantasy. A flutter is your heart saying: “This feels good… and it feels safe… but I’m not losing myself.” ...

 Declarar la palabra sobre tu misma. Que el senor se manifiesta en tu vida.  Amen, amen. Asi fue que yo me sane.  You're gonna be so free. There's nothing like God's freedom.  17, could have been crazy. yo no voy a regresar. seguir orando, orando, orando, until it arrives. wrestle with the spirit. you cant let yourself drown.  declare them over you. I am fighting and i'm winning. i'm breaking the chains. and I'm pushing through.  lo desarmo. le d la autoridad se  me dio jesucristo.  aprender a luchar. luchar y vencer luchar y salir.  Te lo debes a mi misma. el ya  Jesus ya pelio por mi. Yo tengo que peliar para seguir ser salva. Declarala. 

  You’re afraid his casualness means: “Maybe he has nothing else to say.” “Maybe it didn’t matter that much.” “Maybe I’m making more of it than he is.” But people who are casual in communication aren’t casual in feeling . They just don’t express it in the same channel you prefer. Think about this: If it hadn’t mattered to him, he wouldn’t have said he liked you. He wouldn’t have shared in that emotional space with you. He wouldn’t have asked to see you in person. Those things are not casual. What you’re feeling right now is the friction between your attachment system wanting soothing, and his communication style being slower, quieter, more physical than verbal. Absolutely — let’s go deeper into what “internalizing the moment” actually means, especially in men or people who don’t process verbally. Internalizing the moment means: They feel the experience deeply, but instead of talking about it, unpacking it, or reaching out to clarify… they go quiet and sit with the feel...