VENUS

 TODAY WENT TO A HEAD


she started on her BS about me disobeying God


i let it slide last time


i didnt this time. 


i said i'm setting a boundary. you are gonna let that go and stop saying i didnt get a car 


i could not get a car. i already have said that. so you are gonna stop bringing that up to me.


IF YOU HAD GOTTEN A CAR


i said i will with the tax return. YOU DISOBEYED GOD.


i said you are Venus, you are not God


SHE SAID HOLY SPIRIT IS TALKING THROUHG ME.


i said i am not a baby christian, i have a relationship with God and holy spirit talks to me to.


you gonna let that go about the car, stop saying that to me.


SHE GOT A LITTLE UPSET AND I SAID I'M GONNA LET YOU GO KNOW.


SHE WENT ON AND ON (WHEN YOU SET BOUNDARIES, PEOPLE GET UPSET)


so i let it go, it seemed she wasnt gonna get over that.


THEN SHE SAID, YOU CALLED ME, YOU'RE THE ONE IN THE SITUATION.


Like that has anything to do with it.  that's right i called her.


maybe i should have cut her off before. i give people so many chances. BELIEVE PEOPLE THE FIRST TIME. Dmx wisdom. she believes holy spirit speaks through her and she believes she is right because it TAKING TIME for osmething to come to pass (me getting a car).


she's aggrevating me is what's happening and calling me disobedient because its not happening fast enough.


COMMON SENSE YOU DONT GO SOMEWHERE AND WALK AWAY WITHOUHT PUTTING ANY MONEY DOWN OR HAVING ENOUGH INCOME TO GET A CAR.


ALSO, CLARITY. GOD TOLD YOU AND HUSBAD GUY OH GO TO DEALERSHIP. 


I WENT TO A DEALERSHIP IN MY TIME AND GUESS WHAT? I COUDLNT WALK AWAY WITH A CAR. I'M GLAD THAT'S HOW GOD DID IT FOR YOU.


a prophet, if god uses you to speak a word over somebody, ITS NOT YOUR RESPONSABILITY HOW LONG IT TAKES TO PASS IN SOMEONE'S LIFE.


I'M LEARNIG THAT EVERYDAY WITH ME REACHING OUT TO GUY I MET IN MIAMI. HE DOESNT ANSWER AND HAS GONE MISSING. 


AND THE GIRL GOD HAD ME SPEAK TO. RESTAURANT CLOSED, I SAW HER TWICE AND HAVENT SEEN HER SINCE. 


SAME AS PEOPLE IN MCDONALDS GOD HAD ME SPEAK TO. NEVER SEEN THEM AGAIN. THEY WERE VISITING MIAMI ANYWAYS. 


i'm that weird girl that one time told you this. and boom that's it. messenger gone. just a memory. a confirmation of a word God has already told a person.


I WAS PROPHESIED TO AHVE A JEEP YEARS AGO. I WAS 18? I'M 38. ITS BEEN 29 YEARS. PROPHESY OVER A CAR. YOU COME SAID GET A CAR. AND MAD IT DIDNT HAPPEN IN 2 WEEKS. RELAX.


NOW YOU STEP INTO MY FINANCIAL TRAUMA. FEEL WHAT I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH.


I DONT LIKE JUSTIFYING THAT TO ANYONE.



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