Walks in the Park

 1. Lights about to be cut out 2. Erica- Ciara is going to have another baby. 3. Long story about sitting 2 dogs next door (conclusion?) Bri's it's an ongoing situation. 4. Story about the rocking chair being put away from the porch. IT''S TOO MUCH!!!!!! ././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././././ >?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?>?

You don't have to arrive at some future version of yourself before you're worthy of love. You're already His. And I would change the story you're telling yourself. Instead of: “I'm the person who isn't loved or supported.” Try: “I'm a loved woman who is learning to stop looking for validation in places that have repeatedly failed to give it.” That's a completely different identity. You're not the abandoned one. You're the woman building a life. You're not the family disappointment. You're the woman still moving forward despite disappointment. You're not the woman nobody sees. You're the woman learning to see herself clearly. You're not powerless because you can't change your family. You're powerful because you can decide what their behavior means about them without allowing it to determine what it means about you. And maybe the goal isn't to get to a place where family stuff never bothers you. ...

1) Outside an apartment. Lady is related to Jane's husband, married and has a kid. The husband would always drive their car, park their car. He is white.  Never knew he was the lady's husband. driving a nice car, sports car.  dark blue.  (parking lot of apartment building) One time, sees them all together, lady guy and their kid. they say hi to you. She says hi. Jane's husband saw her too. Later on, husband calls and says lady made goosie (traditional soup). normal dish, make it in bulk.  Jane got upset. I just saw her, I just said hi, why didn't she tell me to come over? why didn't she call you? Jane's mom calls her and says "Oh this lady told me she made goosies maybe you guys should get some." Jane says why she is telling everyone but me?  ***Jane feeling excluded** 2) Amaka, this time Jane goes into her apartment and she's there. there's all these people in her apartment. she's helping them get ready for a wedding. she was doing her mak...

 What do I feel? I am not sure. I cleaned, I should be happy. the bathroom is sparkling. really, I usually love after I do things.  it's almost like i'm mourning. Realizing that this is it. this is my new reality. I am a person with no family. I am not going to go.  they wont call. the holidays will be me and my son. why am I sad about that? isnt it how its been? I'm relying on them to be family.  it hasn't been family for a while huh. I wanted to create my own thing and I struggled. I have no vision right now of the future. I feel like I'm in a windowless room.  What's the next couple of years going to look like?  wake up Auris. not inspired right now. I cleaned. do the fridge, do your hair. go to your classes. when will it get better? what hope do I have? I have no idea.  I have no idea. when you are lost, go back to when I had it.  I had it when I was in MIami. I cried when I saw a palm tree. and the sun shining on the waves was always so amazi...

 Mama told me not to trust the guy that steals my heart now he walked out of my life, my world is falling apart he took me from another why did I fall this time? I had somebody who, I thought was already mine.  now I am left with no one  I guess all is fair when it comes to love and war playa be a playa  cheater be a cheat

 I miss miami I miss the heat oh how I desire to have my own place thoughts of future scare me I keep praying for a door to open you opened a door for me to be here. remeber that word? I stand in the hallway waiting for that door to open and you made a way for us to come here. why do I feel so alone? so lost? so directionless. feeling like I waste each day?  Son is sick I start crying. I was cleanig, the bathroom looks great.  bleach got out all the stains. 

Mother is getting free stuff/ attention She represents the confident part of yourself. In the dream she is confused why it was happening. You're like this. Example:

Driving in NJ Passing my aunt's Grace (5 kids) house I see through her front door, watching a  TV screen, a projector.  front door turned into a TV screen. she's taking pictures of herself. video of herself. posting it in Whatsapp status. she looked so different. modelesque.  long hands, long arms.  Jane 0 I don't remember her looking like this. she looked really good. Jane sees her as a trophy wife. someone that is valued for her looks.  a part of her started feeling insecure about herself.  Let me go, let me leave this area. son was in the back of the car. all of a sudden, shes outside coming to take her son. bring him in the house. she was happy to see him. The dream ended.

  Lady- Amaka  In the dream, A was traveling and she would be back at this certain day.  She is in a state of coming and going, she is not rooted in a place or career that she is going to do for the rest of her life. she is in a state of looking, of finding. She is scared to settle. SEARCHER. Jane would have the place to herself. In the dream, you both are sharing your room in your parent's house. No husband and child there.  FOUNDATIONAL- Jane is in the place before she had the life she has now. This is the place that lady is in now. She doesn't have everything that she is going to have. Its a time of uncertainty, sometimes  lot of concern and she needs to increase her faith and keep believing in what God has for her. JUST AS I HAVE OPENED DOORS FOR YOU, I WILL OPEN DOORS FOR HER. Sharing the room, she is going to travel. In the dream, Jane had a feeling that she will come back earlier. It ended up happening, she came up earlier.  This part is saying that ...

I was with my family, my mother, and your brother. (not sure about father). THE PAST, the upbringing. You were part of this unit and you didn't have a voice. You didn't have a choice. You were a very obedient child. you were willing to follow.  CHILD-MAN--- leaderships. (scripture) In the dream, they were out in  some building and going out and Jane sees her husband's oldest sister. Husband and his family, they were raised different. more traditional roles. The men were the leaders. In your family unit, your mother took more of a leadership role. your family upbringing and his family upbringing is completely different. Nonso grew up and he was able to lead himself, he was not raised or encouraged to be inside with the family as much. He was able to SELF-LEAD.... Jane walks in the door, in the building and the sister is on the couch. COUCH- TRANSITIONAL PERIOD. She is in a vulnerable position. What is her place? Is she looking for her place? There is this insecurity there....

 call center? tomorrow at 12pm. call center  community health advocate. partner with Medicaid to deliver services to the clients, things like that.  Jeremiah,  what is something that is not on the paper?

 Jenny- 2 dreams 1 dream- years ago when chiquita was a toddler WW2 person was trying to get in the house. and threw chiquita towards another side of the house.  and Jenny woke up. 2nd  dream: 2 weeks ago she was so small she could fit in a small area. random person was trying to bang the head in the door. to get inside, gets in the house and Jenny feels like she needs to protect herself. Jason left. Jenny tells massive person, let me tell call Jason, Chiquita is sleeping in a next to where she was Jenny was standing.  the person said no. 6'3 wide person. big like fat football player. 3rd dream (last week) person comes through the yard, take a stance, put their arm up and hears a massive pop.  Average size, skinny person.  Jenny turned to scream and she can't. She knows Jason is in the back taking a nap. Wake up in tears, I'm sorry God. sorry if I have been disobedient. where I stand. 

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July 8th.  First dream-  Jane was sleeping in her apt. Woke up, where is my husband? looking for him.  confused, come out of the room. hes not in living room. Open the door lightly. Sees husband talking to a lady.  pretty much they are talking about something discreetly.  He leaves and the lady is making a call to someone in Nigeria. She's saying she's starting the process to send the son to Nigeria.  Dream ends.   Jane- the lady that he's talking to why do you have to go outside and talking to him discreetly? something to talk to us because we are one. why talk to him without you there.  Another dream- Jane was at, giving birth but she was at home. I had twins, girl and boy. Came out of nowhere, then had another kid.  BLESSINGS THAT COME WITHOUT PREPARATION> A SUDDEN WIND WILL SWEEP YOU AND YOUR HOUSEHOLD. CHANGE IS COMING> VERY PLEASED WITH YOU JANE> All of a sudden has 3 kids, came out of nowhere. I was looking at them. looki...

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DNS lookup-  dig command on Linux, you enter 'dig and website name like professor messer.com and it does a query (it shows the results of when it shows up). text based.  on Windows, its nslookup command.  2.3 authentication server- you put name and password and it gives access to central server -not in personal home, since everyone can share the same password - in an enterprise, where we need more security everyone has their own credentials NTP server- network time protocol. all the computers need to reference the same time for accuracy. load server/balancer: is a system (hardware or software) that distributes incoming network traffic across multiple servers . it makes sure the site doesn't crash. it balances out the load amongst different servers, spreads the load.  2.4 DNS configuration DHCP-automatically give IP addresses to different devices in a large network. started in 1997. prevents someone having to do it manually. (dynamic host configuration protocol) 2.4 v...

 near field communication (NFC) allows someone to get close to a terminal and have access or authenticate themselves. example- key card to allow access to a building or phone to make a payment. has to be 4 centimeters or less, so relatively close.  PAN- personal area network. what we call the network that we use Bluetooth on, its short distance over a high powered connection. turn your phone into a wifi hotspot.  trackpad- what is called for the box at the bottom of the laptop that allows us to use our fingers as a mouse (no external mouse needed).  1.3 MDM- mobile device management- manage company owned and user owned mobile devices (cell phones, tablets). some companies allow use of personal phone inside the building. others provide company owned devices and allow user to have personal use as well.  2.1 introduction to IP TCP and UDP are two different ways to move data from place to place. TDP- transmission control protocol, a connection based way to transfer ...

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Sowing and reaping- what we sow we will reap. Do not grow weary in good doing. Jose got healed over 3 months. keep declaring it over yourself, let the seed grow.  don't give it up easily. don't allow the devil to take it back.  us as believers be helpful but also to pursue their spiritual well being.  luke 8: 4-15 What is the seed: the word of God. what are we to sow and plant? the word of God. feeling stuck? maybe no maturing. why? pleasures of this world. rather watch TV,  not water, not plant. we are not growing anymore. we are just existing. I don't feel like waking up early, reading the bible. next thing you know, 2 months (this is me!!!) Hebrews 4: 12 the word of God is powerful.

 dream- CULT  waves, nice up and down and pleasant. all white lifeguard stand,  and a dark pier towards the left. seems like the pier doesn't extend into the water, just on the beach. lifeguard stand is all white, 50 feet away from her in her left. black guy with blue backwards fitted hat. he climbs the lifeguard tower,  he puts a blue card. (like referred in a soccer game) . he has a message.  there is an angel aspect, divinity aspect to this lifeguard stand.  When he puts the blue card, people run to him and follow him. Lee is by the pier.  Puddles and mud and sand, the same black guy comes riding on grayish white spotted horse. he is galloping. he runs between the pier and the homeless man. and there's me (Lee). Grayish and white (diluted word, not a good foundation) People are galloping behind him with similar looking horses. and a lot of them, fall. the horses fall towards each other. the hooves are broken down.  the storm passed, Lee did not...