Walks in the Park

 In NY, I kept seeing 777 but Samual keeps coming up in numbers, 11:11. and 444 Maybe we'll meet again. So I tried to picture it, what I would say. I would be encouraging.

 My brain is on this content creation ideas. maybe  1. take class with Corey (the best to ever do it) 2. make money for equipment 3. take class ($25 class from brooklyn chick, she knows how to make content that people want to watch) DO I WANT TO POST ALL DAY? What if I post with a system, pre-recorded stuff on a schedule (I'm sure that's how Neo does it). Neo has his story down pact, Alaka said he learned it from TAI LOPEZ 4. tai lopes has an AI course now. teach businessess how to use AI. should I get in this?  MORE PASSIONATE ABOUT THE CONTENT THING. I FEEL LIKE ITS TIME TO BUIL MY BRAND. WHAT DOES GOD SAY ABOUT THIS?

 I am tired of being your daughter, I am tired of holding your secrets I retire I just have to be me now. Let me figure that out.

 Do i feel abandoned by her? NEVER. why? I guess because it wasnt her choice. she didnt leave.  she was there everyday and she raised me. then mom kept being so upset that we loved her. then it was like keeping physical distance from her.  i see her at family functions. eventually, she moved to the US and Marcus might have stayed with us for a little while. I remember he went to Bayonne High, it was so fun when he was here. Then she moved and she went to Atlantic City, another city so we didnt see her everyday.  there was the day we went to the doctor, me Margot and Marcus because he had an ear infection it turned out. we walked forever to get him to the doctor. i missed at least 2 hours of school. TIA DIDNT care. he just wanted to go take him to the doctor, no matter how long it took. i remember we walked to. why didnt we take a taxi? no idea. HOW ABOUT NOW? HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT HER NOW?  Tia Margot is someone I love. I feel like she doesnt value me. She is an...

 today took morning walk, had a deep talk with a friend that was also taking a walk spent morning when i got back relaly in worship went to church, alex was watched by Jackie (that's a blessing, support) i had an amazing service seeing people commit to christ, god said i should do sunday school and i dont have to act on it now spoke to 2 musicians, they answered my questions i had lunch with a beautiful spanish family, and we spoke about music and i performed the song that i have been practicing, i felt a breakthrough today like my voice could really come out now its' 7pm. oh and after all this, i get alex and we play chess int he park (an experinece I've wanted him to have) now its 729 i'm falling asleep thoughts wake me up about me getting old and where is live going and this feeling like i'm runing out of time. like i've been dreaming all my life nad my whole life ive been reaching for it and time is runing out. shoudl i accept failure? i refuse MAYBE ITS AN ...

 FLIGHT TO LA TO VISIT JANE STOP AT LAS AIRPORT, LOUSIANA (LOOK AT THAT HOUSE I REALLY LIKE, CHECK OUT THE TOWN) THEN TAKE FLIGHT TO LA THEN TAKE FLIGHT TO THAILAND FLIGHTS ARE THE SAME AS STAYING OUT HERE. Idea.

 ELLIS,  Saving- IRA AND 401K Palm Beach Gardens, FLORIDA. Ortiz funeral Colessum in Washington heights. Unemployment. 3 hours, sending.  REMOTE TO WORK FROM HOME. AREAS THAT MAY REQUIRED A LICENSE.  SERIES 6, A 401K AND IRA. END THERE.  1 WEEKEND CLASS. UNEMPLOYED NOW.  COULD BE A 30 DAY PERIOD.  NO COMPENSATED. 1-2 DAYS A WEEK. SERIES 6, CONNECT FROM ONE ON ONE BASIS .WEB CONFERENCE.  WHAT IS A MUTUAL FUND. WHATS AN INDEX FUND.  ADVISING. MIDDLE AGE,  80 30 TO 50 AGES OLDER OR YOUNGER THAN THAT.  REAL ESTATE OPPORTUNITY.  COMISSION BASED POSITION. LOADED: MY VIEW, ITS ESSENTIALLY ALL IT IS.  HELP A FAMILY, GET PAID  LAYER- IF THEY WANT TO GO IN THAT DIRECTION. WE WANT TO DEVELOP PEOPLE TO BECOME THEIR OWN BROKER AND DEVELOP THEIR OWN AGENCY.  WE WANT TO HAVE FOLKS THAT START IN PART TIME. LEARN TO MARKET THEMSELVES, LEARN HOW TO LICENSE THEIR OWN AGENTS.  OWN THEIR OWN BRANCHES.  PUBLICALLY TRADED COM...

 take out square in resume, they don't use that anymore CHANGE THE RESUME AND SEND IT BLANCH AGAIN MEETING ON MAY 19TH. SEND YOU FORMS WITH NEW JOBS I'M APPLYING TO.

 HOLY SPIRIT. VERY LOW VOICE, ALMOST FAR AWAY. IT WAS LIKE RIGHT. AND IT LED TO BREAKFAST WITH MYNOR AND HIS FRIEND JOSE AND I TALKED ABOUT MY LIFE. HOMELESS THING CAME OUT. I WAS SURPISED. THEN HE TOOK ME TO ROOT CANAL PLACE. DAVID, INFECTION WAS BAD. IT SMELLED. AFTER 2 WEEKS, WE CAN CONTINUE. I'LL GET PRESCRIPTIONS IN THE AM. WHEN I GOT THE COFFE THEN GOT TOOPASTE AND THINGS WE NEEDED, I LOOK AT THE BANK ACCOUNT AND IT SAID $3.16. THEN I OPEN MY EYES WHEN I'M IN THE CHAIR, I SEE 5/5/25 GRACE, GRACE, GRACE I SEE GRACE EVERYWHERE. LESLY PICKED UP ALEX AND FED HIM. SHE GOT ME FROM THE 45TH LIGHT RAIL. I WAS SO GRATEFUL.

 THIS WEEK'S TASK LED TO: Sunday- Birthday party (memories, family, friends) Monday- fulfilled work responsibilities iron pill- to raise iron/ health affirmation: I AM HEALTHY fulfilled unemployment responsibilities (my main source of income right now) Talk to Lee- friendship bar Auris sleep- idk rest has been in there all week MILDRED TASK- kept my word, asked my family regarding her taking care of Mamai. It didn't work out. CAR INSURANCE EMAILS- sent emails to reinstate both of our car insurances. How to follow up on this? (5/5 they sent letter. zari's policy is reinstated. wait for mine in the mail) VIDEO CALLS WITH JENNY- finalizing gift idea. ALMOST THERE.  PROOF OF ADDRESS TO BAYONNE BOARD OF ED- long time coming, got the ID back in January and now we are in April 30 is when I did this errand. Always gets pushed back, GLAD THIS IS FINALLY DONE. How to follow up? They will send a letter if anything. For now, they said they received the email. EYE DROPS- suggestion by L...

 5 content ideas Entrepreneurs make when building a personal brand. HOW DO YOU LEARN: 1. WRITE EXACTLY WHAT THE SPEAKER IS SAYING 2. WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU THINK OF AS YOU ARE LISTENING  (WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU) 3. CONTENT CREATION IS WEALTH CREATION-  You can create, click wealth, increase your income by simply creating videos.  WHAT ARE YOUR CONTENT GOALS THIS YEAR? START! WHY? INCREASE IMPACT AND INCOME BOOK: START WITH WHY. REASONS COME BEFORE RESULTS. UNTIL YOU HAVE BIG ENOUGH REASONS, YOU WONT HAVE THE RESULTS.. OUR WHY IS OUR WHO. YOUR FAMILY. YOUR FUTURE, THE PEOPLE YOU ARE CALLED TO SERVE. Everyone in this call is good at something. NEXT STEP: GET KNOWN FOR BEING GOOD AT THAT. OMAR: LEADING VOICES IN BUILDING YOUR PERSONAL BRAND.  ONE OF THE PASTORS IN CITY (???) CHURCH LAS VEGAS. 7 FIGURE BUSINESS PART TIME. GIVE BIG WITH MONEY AND TIME, INTENTIONAL ABOUT THAT. PART OF WHY HE BUILT THAT BUSINESS. Help a way to help people. i do that by having mastermind...

 Next day: Joy comes in the morning. Free breakfast sandwich due to being Walmart week (we can get a free sandwich every day, wow, God's grace always coming through when I really need it. I READ LAST'S NIGHT ENTRY. And I wanted to say: what happened at physical therapy yesterday. after thinking of Neo and Breylan.  i got on a row boat and as I was moving and the hip was activated all this came to me. Almost like the hip was screaming at me, the sounds of the feelings that I dont allow myself to feel. it said: I MISS MY FATHER, I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I WISH YOU WERE AROUND.  IN COLLEGE, WHEN I DATED BOYS. I WISH YOU WERE AROUND TO TELL ME YOU ARE PROUD. I BECOME A PROFESSIONAL LIKE YOU SAID. YOU WERE NOT AT THAT GRADUATION. THEN I WENT TO COLLEGE. YOU MISSED THE GRADUATION AS WELL. I get cold, I get numb (in my regular life). the life God wants me to deal in is heart first, feelings matter, all the THINGS THAT MY FAMILY HAS BEEN TRYING TO PRUNE AWAY FROM ME SINCE I WAS BORN. ...

 i feel so bad  that i still struggle with money i did a birthday for my son now rent's due and i' short i borrowed $80 from Lesly Maybe i flew too close to the sun maybe it got away from me I don't think I spent much. and the money people gave, I used that for Catch Air. Were my ideas too big? The apartment is so small. I filled it to capacity. I was so grateful that I got to do everything.  Why am  I suffering now? WHAT HAPPENED TODAY: first day of physical theraphy. It was painful/uncomfortable for me. I think of serving Braylan and then I think of serving Neo. It helped me get through it.  Then I thought, what about you? what do you need? why you always compulsively think about serving others? to me, there is no greater thing, I feel so purposeful when it happens. Today I got reminded of my dreams.  The play, met a girl that had a herbal healthy store. $8 for that shea butter, mango, perfect for my elbows.  I FEEL SO WEAK AND VULNERABLE, LORD. I'm ...