Walks in the Park

 i rather have a world loud bustling when i step outside i rather have my curiosity fed i do not level up inside i like my house to be my enclave my escape from the world a place i go to heal and rest and have plants and then go outside and learn things in school and do different things yah heard?

 is like me not having access to comfort like not having a blanket but she needs to comfort herself and focus on her and her baby that needs her i remember the call she was looking for a private space to even speak its hard for me to accept that she's better off without me there's been so much space and now there is so much space that we are not there for each other on anything life has moved on i leaned on God in Miami like never before yes talked to Jenny, she was a big help i all of a sudden had time nevagating that was difficult Zari helped me a lot somedays gave me the daily ticket fee right now, Melody is a burst of light. either way i have had to learn to live without her i cant call her when my emotions are too much she was always kind and nice  i called her when the thing with yomeiry was happening the last voice note we did she said how i said too much to her that she wished i didnt say it i was going through a lot but it made me feel like i need to be there for mysef

 like something I'm forced to do like spend time in a cemetery Brunswick was depressing to living with girls and hardly anymore who knew leaving bank would be so depressing met angel, fell too fast got a baby came back to bank life and mother and toxic and feeling powerless and no money how do people live, how do they overcome running away from all this and get a bit of peace and come back and have more thought Shar was sad but she was actually  traveling every weekend NY is different but she is so much fun i head about the flight attendant that bought 2 homes now what hope is there in this country but to leave? want to do my year in Florida, my dreams scream every night at me Sasholina and me are holding on to each other like two girls trying not to fall into the sea in the same ship wreck we believe different things and i cant listen to the voice notes i just cant Alaka I spoke to, he wants me to join the solar company and makes sales and also the wall st trapper thing I no longe

Hey this is what's going on I'll apply to everything let's see what happens then it turned into this strong thing and I feel misunderstood or like its unsaid I'm a bad mom because ultimately everything that happens to him is my fault he said speech therapist were wrong and principal is wrong and school is wrong they can provide more that what does it have to do with the doctors? to look into ADP and Florida has a scholarship program. that he can tell the parents that put a lot of work in and the parents that didn't and  Masters in Special Ed and tantrum is a thing with me thing Goodness a little overwhelming "I surprised he's thrived this long. he's not getting what he needs. could be dyslexia." can of worms, I uncovered a can of worms for real go online Denisse got married I'm right here don't get invited.... WTF? If it's any consolation, so did no one else. why do I want to be invited? it's a natural human thing.   I did invite ch