to my future husband

 you are coming soon

 I thought it would happen when I first heard the prophesy


I never imagined it would happen like this

I got a dream

the interpretation was that you are in transition


so I have to rely on my faith as i always do

and pray and hope I get out of this as soon as 


possible

I miss my kid

I want some normalcy

I want to go home

not that I have a home to go to

but I want the resources to create one


seek  first the Kingdom

and all these things shall be added unto you

I'm standing on God's promises,

that's all I have left

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