No one to call

Got no one to call

i haven't been praying

its been filled with silence

i know i'm not alone. and i know he's got my back

and i have to trust. i have to trust. and not worry

but its so hard for me to let the time pass

i make phone calls to new old friends

and the list gets shorter

and i feel lonely

for the first time in a long time.


lonely in the sense of having too much time on my hands.

and looking for ways to fill it up.

what am i supposed to do? am i doing the right thing?

i gottta let go of fear.  and make the jump, once again.