Walks in the Park

two long time friends confessed their love to me and rene he said it in the summer too, that one was 5 years of friendship how long to wait/ and still nothing changes why can't you all be friends women, its hard out here huh women shun you and men want to date you everyone has a request guess the only unselfish person is Jesus who died for us but because of this world its hard to believe anyone would give their life if they cant even give 5 minutes to listen cut you off as soon as you speak we all want to be heard I want to be heard my voice spread out across the world I want to know what it feels like to fly away from here somewhere else, to have money it seems to be the only thing these people care about to validate the self as if something external can tell you the internal beginnings of faith it doesn't make sense but such is the world money can't buy happiness

I am so alone at times it hurts. Where are friends? People I can talk to? Yesterday I was at a diner until 4am with new friends. So can't complain. But this NJCU college experience is so solitary. Not used to it. Good to be focused, good to have someone to share life with as well.